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Something Not So Good Happened...


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Guest Natalie92

Actually this happened a couple weeks ago, but I've been buried in paperwork (thank God for Spring Break being this week!). So... I overslept one day and my dad came in to wake me up. Upon pulling off my blanket, he noticed that my toes were blue. He had known something was up before this. We are very close... close enough to the point where we can pretty much tell what the other is thinking, so I knew that he knew that SOMETHING was up, just not entirely what and I could tell that he was afraid to know what it was. So, after staring for a couple seconds not really knowing what to say, he just said "Get dressed or you'll be late. I'm going to work now." This happened on a Thursday morning and my dad didn't speak to me again until Saturday. And all he said about it was "I don't want to know why you did that. If you're going to do that type of stuff, keep it hidden from me, and I'll pretend I don't know anything about it and we'll all be fine." And things have a little awkward since then.

So that's that. I don't know what to do at this point. I mean, I see his conflict, in that HE'S not the most masculine man in the world and I can tell that he's afraid he might actually be this way (until he got engaged to my mother his sisters thought that he was gay), but I can't be someone I'm not 24/7 anymore just because someone I care about has some coping trouble with it.

Any advice on how to deal with this would be appriciated. He has made it clear though that it's not really open for discussion. Thank you.

Natalie

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Guest Girl Emily

Natalie,

Unless you are ready to live with the worst possible outcome to you telling him the truth. I would just continue keeping it hidden until you can deal with whatever happens after telling him.

Huggs,

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Natalie,,,Hun, you say you two are a real close crew . His reaction is kneejerk stuff,

after all the man is a guy AND is your father-that means he is just digesting this

sight ( your toenails) . Your love for one another wont be broken on this ,,give him

some time Hun ,,,,,then tell him you both got to talk about this . If I was a betting woman

I would bet you both will be cool ,,,,,,in time , dont rush this , use good strategy and tact.

Always here for you Natalie ,,,,luv,viv :)

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Guest angie

Your Dad's reaction reminds me of when I

went and stayed at my inlaws.Though Everyone

knew about me,the reality of my very bright red

toes was a bit of a shocker to both my inlaws because

I refused to hide it. At the time,my toes were the only

outward sign of my pending sex change.No one could

tell me not to wear my polish,I felt they had known for

a couple of years all ready,so seeing reality let them

know it was more then just heresay.

I would keep it on the sly,but slowly let your girl out.

Then when you are ready,have a sit down and tell your

Daddy the truth of who you are,and where you are going.

It may surprise him,but will bring you huge relief to finally

unload.Just make sure he knows you are not gay,you are

a girl,and it is no ones fault but Mother Nature and the luck

of the draw we transgenders are given.Me thinks he will love

his daughter just as much as your old self once he adjusts.

Hugs Natalie,

Angie

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Guest Donna Jean

I gotta agree, natalie......

It's not a deal breaker..

You and your dad are close, there's no reason for him to reject you...

I know that he wants to hide his head in the sand right now and just doesn't want to know anyting, but, you can't stay locked away forever just to keep him in the dark...

I think it's going to be fine...like Angis said....have "The Talk" with him when you're ready and I think that you'll have a good outcome overall!

HUGGS & LUCK....

Donna Jean

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