Trying To Stop

[Guest HaidyBearxx]

I've been having a really hard time trying to quit/stop being anorexic.. but lately my attempts at trying to stop just make me feel bulimic. My boyfriend is so very upset.. But when I eat, I feel sick, when I feel sick, I have to vomit. I haven't in the past couple of days, but I've been binging a lot the past couple weeks, and it's like I can feel my stomach expand. It's horrible. I cried so hard, for 3 hours, because I gained a 1/2 inch around my waist. I feel so nasty and fat. My boyfriend isn't helping me at all, either.. He tells me to stop purging and fasting, and eat, and yet when I actually allow myself to eat, he calls me a fatty. A week ago I allowed myself a slice of pizza, he called me a fatass.. I spat it out, threw it away, and tried to purge (that, sadly, failed.)

Can anyone help me with ways or tricks to feel better about my eating??

Oh, and also, I've cut down my excersise to only 40 minutes on the treadmill a day. (I did that, and these walk-excercise videos that rounded up to 6 miles of intensified walking, and a workout video.)

[Guest Elizabeth K]

Ummm...

YEAH

Lose that stupid boyfriend! He is being a sadistic P----!

(what the end of the needle can do to your fingertip)!

TRUST ME

Lizzy

[Guest Donna Jean]

Hon...that is a vicious circle that you seem to be in.

Do you have a therapist or someone that you can talk to about this?

You have to be able to break the circle.

And you're boyfriend is being an ******* by encouraging you to eat and then calling you names...

What's his problem, anyway?

Hon...you need some help with this....OK?

HUGGS!

Donna Jean

[Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James]

I've been having a really hard time trying to quit/stop being anorexic.. but lately my attempts at trying to stop just make me feel bulimic. My boyfriend is so very upset.. But when I eat, I feel sick, when I feel sick, I have to vomit. I haven't in the past couple of days, but I've been binging a lot the past couple weeks, and it's like I can feel my stomach expand. It's horrible. I cried so hard, for 3 hours, because I gained a 1/2 inch around my waist. I feel so nasty and fat. My boyfriend isn't helping me at all, either.. He tells me to stop purging and fasting, and eat, and yet when I actually allow myself to eat, he calls me a fatty. A week ago I allowed myself a slice of pizza, he called me a fatass.. I spat it out, threw it away, and tried to purge (that, sadly, failed.)

Can anyone help me with ways or tricks to feel better about my eating??

Oh, and also, I've cut down my excersise to only 40 minutes on the treadmill a day. (I did that, and these walk-excercise videos that rounded up to 6 miles of intensified walking, and a workout video.)

Your boyfriend is defiantly NOT helping. He shouldn't be doing that especially since you have an ED. Have you tried to talk to him about it? The way that he treats you? Maybe being together isn't a good thing.

Maybe you could change what you eat? Is there any foods that make you feel okay eating? What foods are you okay with eating? Take a moment to make a list.

Do some kind of exercise each day, but don't over do it. Just enough to feel better about yourself.

[Guest HaidyBearxx]

The only person I really have is my friend Jake. He helps me when I get spazzy about food. and I can't say anything to my counselor, or she'll tell my mum and dad, and I'll be sent to the mental home. No, thank you.

[Guest Lee-Asher Geo-James]

The only person I really have is my friend Jake. He helps me when I get spazzy about food. and I can't say anything to my counselor, or she'll tell my mum and dad, and I'll be sent to the mental home. No, thank you.

Is he good about talking to you about this? Unlike the boyfriend?

Why would she say anything to your mum and dad?

You shouldn't be sent there right away any ways. Counsellors are supposed to help you work things out first.

Did you make that list?

[Guest Angelgrlsue]

Haidy

Sounds like your boyfriend is not supportive at all, no wonder you want to just vomit every time you eat something. I would not put up with his remarks, kick him out!

I have had problems with binging too, not alot but when I do I feel very guilty afterwards, so....what I have started trying is keeping myself busy by taking my mind off food. Listening to music, doing some housework, going outside either for a walk or just to get the mail, making something, non food wise, a craft or something of that nature, writing in a journal, calling a friend, anything that will keep you busy and your thoughts away from food at the moment. Just some suggestions.

Hugs,

Suzie

[Guest Happy Helper]

Your boyfriend is probably right about your needing to shed some excess weight...however it doesn't need to come off of your body. You just need to drop him! It almost sounds like he wants to appear to be concerned and helpful by asking you to stop, but then throws out the insults the moment you try to take a step toward getting healthy, to make sure your self esteem stays nice and low. Gross.

You are worth more than that. I promise.