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Soooooooo this crazy CT weather has allowed me to work from home today! I could have gone in but I have a bunch of reports to write and that can be done, ANYWHERE! Plus roads coated in ice are not fun.

So I am working from home and in full girl-mode! Took me about an hour to get ready between dressing and putting on makeup. Makeup was about 30 minutes which isn't too bad. I have more photos up in the gallery. So far I spent my day working and listening to a bunch of Frank Zappa albums and being in girl-mode. Curious observation is that when alone and dressed I'm usually in high spirits, but when I change clothing to male ones and go out then stuff comes back, and when I'm alone and not dressed I am also prone to bad/annoying/crazy thoughts. I think the next experiment should be, going out while dressed but that will be a big step... don't think I have the guts yet.

Tomorrow evening I'm going to get to meet up with a GT. Unfortunately I'll probably be going straight from work, which means that I won't have the opportunity to be dressed or anything. But at this point I'm willing to take what I can get. I'm not too worried about it getting canceled again because the weather is supposed to be nice albeit cold tomorrow. I'm just hoping I don't freeze up when I get there, 'cause honestly where will I begin?

Now I must be diligent and get back to work,

<3

Orva

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Thanks for the update, Orva. I'm glad you're safe and snug at home.

I think its natural to feel good when you can dress, and not so good when you can't. I've come to accept that I can't always be dressed, and while it's a bit depressing, I just look forward to when I go full time, and that keeps me going.

Good luck with the G.T., hon. Don't worry a bit about being in guy mode - they're used to that. How many new clients would they see who was already full time and could come from work dressed en femme? Not many, I would think.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Guest Audrey Elizabeth

I feel the same way. But at least for today you get to work from home in full girl mode. I am here in the office dress like a boy. :(

Enjoy the rest of your day!!

Audrey :wub:

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Guest Emily Ray

I am so happy for your good spirits! I love to dress up! I am quite the girly girl! A snow day, I bet this one will be long remembered! I am excited to hear your report from tomorrow! It will still be a few weeks before I can get to mine again and I miss her.

Huggs

Em

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Orva,

I'm happy for you! I too am working from home in full woman-mode today. I try to do this 2 to 3 times a week when I can. I am loving it. It takes me about an hour to get ready too -- makeup/dressed. My wife works at home with me too most of these days and is ok with it. She helps style my hair (wig) which is awesome! Around 3:00 when I have to change back to male on these days I get really depressed about it and wish it didn't have to happen. My wife says I mope. I have 2 daughters... the little one has seen me and acts like nothing. My older one (still young too but in school) doesn't know. I haven't ventured out of my house yet either. I really want to but I don't have the courage. My voice isn't ready for one thing. Still working on the passable all-around (I just read the post about passing in the transsexual forum). It's important to me. I want to be without question identified as a woman. I find myself planning or thinking in advance what I'm going to wear the next time I get to dress. Sometimes it's really hard to decide. And sometimes I change clothes a few times during the day! So indecisive. lol!

Enjoy your day!!

Sienna

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I did enjoy yesterday quite a lot. To an extent I didn't want to take the cloths off so I didn't end up getting out to de-ice my car until nightfall. Now, THAT WAS FUN! :rolleyes: I think fully dressing like this is a good thing for me, one I should do when I can. Unfortunately during the week it isn't practical because I don't have a whole lot of time between cooking diner and other various housework before I go to sleep. I might try to set aside one day of the weekend to do it though.

Doubly unfortunately therapy has been moved to Monday. <_< Although the weather wasn't bad today the GT's town did not do a swift job on snow removal and as a result there was no parking. Now I've reached the point where this is happening, I will park in someone's yard if I have to! :angry: Talking with her on the phone for a bit helped but driving didn't. Seemed more particularly bothered at the ridiculous actions some people call driving tonight. I didn't want to just go back to my place so I made the most excellent call of going food shopping and indulging in my want to by new foods. A few times in the store I became envious of others but for the most part I was too busy buying cool things:

I bought a whole duck because they're a bird full of dark meaty goodness! Going to try and make Thai duck noodle soup (or at least as close as I can without going to an Asian market for real ingredients). I also got me some ox-tails! Pretty pumped about that, Jamaican ox-tails are delicious, I even found a spice pack for it in the store. I also had the foresight to get plantains so I can fry them up! I also got a Jicama which I am enjoying right now with lime juice and red pepper. It is a pretty crazy fruit but will it be as crazy as the cactus pear I also got? Also my local grocery store stocks one of my favorite beers, Hoegaarden! Its a DELICIOUS Belgian white spiced wheat beer and I loooooooooooooooooovvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeeeee it!

I had an interesting thought when I was carrying this all in to my apartment and that was that I will probably miss the ability to carry so much stuff at once. I also had the thought that maybe I should hulk out and be a guy b/c I don't make a half bad fella, but I don't think I can do that... like I know that when I would be working out that I would be viewing it as more of a test of alleviation than an actual goal.

I'm going to be hanging out with friends on Saturday so I think I'll be able to stay cool until Monday.

There will be another update when I do finally get to see the GT!

-Orva

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