My Fears

[Guest Michelle/nuckles]

My latest fears of being Tg/ts or what else.

Is what I will call

The "crying game" syndrome

It when one finds out that the other is not What they seemed to be.

And me dealing with the hurt of rejection. when they find out.

Yes the possible brutality and possible death scare me .

Because of the possibility of that person psychological ballance dealing with it.

It like in the movie tootsie ,when Micheal says " glad you made home. I was afraid I be on the front page in the morning"

Because I would hate to be found dead three days later by some body.

because i stunk up the area.

For some reason when I dress I lose myself for Iam another person. a female person that is.

Me as a male doesnt exsist. any more.

So i dont really know what I am in real life t/g ts/cd/autogynphilliac?

but I am stating what I feel.

[Guest matthew41]

New feelings can be confusing. Experience them, talk about them, its all good. It was exhilarating and scary for me when I was just the real me at first. For me, the female persona was just an act but not having her around any more was an "out in the world all alone" feeling. I didn't lose myself, I found the real me. Your fear of rejection is understandable, we have all been there at some point. Who you are, and what you want will come together in your mind in time. Take care,

Matt

[Guest Jenny]

I like the way you put that, I haven't been able to put my finger on it until you said it; "out in the world, all alone". Definately feels that way.

[Guest karen_h]

but we are not alone anymore iused to think i was the only person in the world like me but now i know ihave a whole world of caring family and as we all explore our paths we know we have each other to count on

[Guest SharleahLynn]

but we are not alone anymore iused to think i was the only person in the world like me but now i know ihave a whole world of caring family and as we all explore our paths we know we have each other to count on

hmmmmmmmm, let me see. Counts on Karen , 1...2...3...4...5...6.....7..

So much for that one Karen . You know I gotta pick on ya

SharleahLynn

[pennyjane]

God must love us, because it's true.....He made so many of us. and He's been making us for a long time now. we're not mistakes, we're not second class, we're not wierd or even abnormal. it is entirely normal that we are here. some people have black skin in a predominately white skinned society, can any of us say that they are abnormal? for a black person it is entirely normal to have black skin, even likely! are they mistakes? i think that flies in the face of reason. if God has been making us for as long as He's been making people, how can we say we are abnormal? we are a minority, but as always, God blesses His minorities with gifts others often don't recieve. we hurt so, but the more we hurt the greater is our comfort. we so often don't measure up to the norm in physical appearance, but who here has not seen the radiant beauty in the souls of our peers? truthfully, can anyone here say they have met another group of people who are more empathic with one another? where else can we see the true and sincere joy that spreads throughout a community then in ours when one of us makes a breakthough? shoot, even the gg world doesn't get as excited as do we when one of us gets a new dress. even the guys among us get that, we all know how important it is. this sharing of blessings among us is a gift, a gift the masses don't have. God make us very special creatures indeed, He wants this kind of a society in His world and we are how He has chosen to express it.

[gennee]

I was scared when I was having these strange feeling. All because I wanted to try on my spouse's skirt. Instead of the urge going away, it got stronger. For sevearl weeks I resisted the notion that I was a crossdresser. When I finally admitted to myself that I am a crossdresser, relief and inner peace filled me.

Those feelings are real, Michelle. I believe that I am a better person because of my feminine side. We're not weird or strange, we just express another side to our personalities.

Gennee [/font]