Finally told my parents. <yawn>

[MackenzieB]

After 10 years of avoiding it I finally told my parents. It just got to the point were I couldn't keep it bottled up anymore. So I called them tonight and told them.

It was the most anticlimatic thing I've ever done with them. I told them about the dysphoria and how it doesn't go away, that it's either do something about it or stay miserable. Their response was "Oh. Let us know what happens on that". And then the subject changed to something else. I don't think it was a surprise. They'd caught me too many times when I was a teenager. Why was I so worried about this?

[Guest Donna Jean]

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We all worry about so many things that never happen.......

I'm not saying to not be cautious......

But, I am saying ........Congratulations!

Huggs

Dee Jay

[Guest Aly Kat]

Wow that sounds anticlimatic... in a good way =P you're lucky! <3

Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

<3 Aly

[Guest Svenna]

YAY!!

Good for you...

Love, Svenna

[MackenzieB]

What a roller coaster of a week! Last weekend I was totally in the dumps. Monday, called and told the parents. Tuesday talked to EEOC regarding if she thought I should do the name change first or wait. She said to do it first as I can't get a new ID badge without a new drivers license. And then there's the payroll issue, insurances and everything else. At least it usually just a one day thing here in Washington. Wednesday went to a meeting with Megan. As I was getting ready, got to the wig. I was in no mood to brush it out. So I figured "screw the wig, people know what I am anyway". I've been growing it for about a year with the exception of getting it cut for an interview last April. It's down to the bottom of my neck, shoulders if I straighten out the waves. I had a self issue with it being a little thin on top but I've been on finasteride for a few months and it's working. I just have to be a little careful where I part it. Got complimented on the hair.

Today was a bit slow at work, so I was chatting with our Department's administrative person regarding some stuff I had ordered. Then she brought up her taking meds. I mentioned that I was taking meds as well. I told her about the hair meds and the Spiro for BP (yea, right). So asked if I was taking hormones for the hair and said she'd noticed that I looked "different" lately. Well, I acknowledged that I was taking hormones. Of course she wanted to know why. My response was that she probably didn't want to know. And I instantly felt guilty for saying that. A couple of minutes later she asked again. I asked her if she was open minded and her reply was simply "Very". So I told her I was Trans. She didn't act surprised and asked if I was going to be changing my name. She told me about how she used to be a "Sweetie Hag" (her words). And at the end of it said "About you being Trans, I knew that."

[Carolyn Marie]

And at the end of it said "About you being Trans, I knew that."

Lol! Isn't that the way it so often goes, Caitlin? We think no one knows, no one notices, but lots do, especially the women. Does make it easier, though, doesn't it?

I'm glad things are going so well for you. You seem a lot more confident these days, and that is a very good thing.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest Jaded1]

It is funny how we build "the event" all up in our minds as if it could be something between the V-day parade or the end of the world and when it is just a "oh, well I knew... so how about them dodgers?" We get a little miffed.

LOL.

[MackenzieB]

And at the end of it said "About you being Trans, I knew that."

Lol! Isn't that the way it so often goes, Caitlin? We think no one knows, no one notices, but lots do, especially the women. Does make it easier, though, doesn't it?

I'm glad things are going so well for you. You seem a lot more confident these days, and that is a very good thing.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

Isn't that the truth! I didn't ask her how she knew. Thankfully it isn't as if they can do anything. And she was very quick to point that out. I'm really not waiting on too much at this point. The "E" is going it's job, the Finasteride is working. I'd just like to give them a bit more time. If push came to shove, I could go full time now and it wouldn't be very painful. After our conversation I'm a bit curious about who and how many other people know. Lol, probably everybody in the department.

[MackenzieB]

My strange week just seems like it doesn't want to go away. I received a call about an hour ago from an old girlfriend from High School. We were always very close, prior to our "going out" and even in the years that followed school. If certain things hadn't occurred in her life and mine, I probably would have asked her to marry me. But that didn't happen. Anyhow, I haven't seen her in about 14 years now and it's probably been 10 since we last talked. She called me and immediately asks if I'm happy. I thought it a bit peculiar. Usually one says something like "How have you been?" or something along those lines. Then she tells me that she has, and always will love me (I have no idea how I could have created that kind of impact, but oh well). Then tells me about her son who went to San Francisco and married a guy there. I told her that it was good that he found somebody who loves him. It was a bad connection between cell phones and it dropped a few times. Never did finish the conversation. I asked her if she had spoken with my parents lately (they live in the same suburb) and she said no. I think it's a bit odd due to the timing.

About 20 minutes later my wife called. She was talking about car repairs as of late. And then she said that we needed to discuss the Trans issues. She asked about how the hormones were going, stuff like that. Talked about my having "The Talk" with my daughter since she's old enough to understand now. I brought up the point about going for a name change and the reasons why. She said that it all made sense and that I should go ahead and do it. Whoa! This from my wife who's been a roller coaster at times in the past? She does seem to be a lot more at ease about it over the past couple of years. We talked a bit more about job stuff and such.

The VA might be tossing a big rock into my plans of moving up to Seattle. Our department is shuffling some people around due to a couple of new positions that they've opened up. And one of the guys who was chosen for the new position is going to be coming up from the Hospital in Tacoma (American Lake). Our admin person told me yesterday (the one who knows I'm TS) that I'm the #1 choice to fill the spot opening in Tacoma when that guy goes to Seattle. Well, it's Tacoma and I'm not so keen on that. I wouldn't have to live in Tacoma, at least not the nasty little part of it I'm in now. And a lot of the Trans staff from the Seattle VA transfer to Tacoma anyway (it's quieter, just clinics) so I certainly wouldn't stick out there. And it would be a jump of 2 pay grades. I guess it could be worse.

[Guest John Chiv]

Caitlin,

The important focus of all this is the positive responses. And that says a lot about you.

John

[MackenzieB]

Oh. Thanks John. I hadn't really stopped to think about that aspect. But yea... I've never received a negative response.

[Guest John Chiv]

Caitlin,

You are woman, hear you roar (hopefully you get the song reference) You didn't receive a negative response because you completely believe and project your true gender.

John

[MackenzieB]

Thanks John! I truly appreciate that! And that nice warm fuzzy!