Plan B - Surgery

[Guest WastelandBoat]

As I found out in my other thread, I found out you need SRS in order to have the gender marker read as it should in the state where I have planned to start fresh, begin my new life, with my future roommates.

Since nothing is set in stone, and I'm basically playing Russian Roulette with going down there hoping a passport will work.

I'm going to attempt to get surgery.

No.

I'm going to get this taken care of.

I have a consultation with the University of Maryland on the 20th at 9am, and one with Dr Fischer next year. If for some reason I'm unhappy with the results I would be getting/looking at at the UoM. Since I'm very small, like size A. My father who's ex had a tone of plastic surgery fellow post-op friends.. we hope all I need is libo, or something with no visible scars... I'll have to borrow some money for it and get a loan. But I can hopefully get something with a fixed pay rate of 100 a month with a small interest fee.

This has to be done, or I can't move.

But Even though I have the consultation appointments set - one stated I could get in in January, I keep having horrible nightmares that it doesn't work out and I go down there to Florida and .

I just want this to be all over with. Once this gets done. It will be over. I'll be in the clear. No more worries or tears. I've been nonstop praying to my gods and talking to my spirit guide (I've been debating about posting about that on the Spirituality area).

Maybe in a month I'll be on here rambling how it's finally over high as a kite on painkillers... right?

I had my freak out. I got back up. I am making the major steps to fix this permanently. Once this is done there will nothing else that I'm 'required' to do in either state to live as myself.

[Flint]

I don't how long you ahve been out as trans....So it's not for me to say if it's all too quick....

But I hope you're not going too fast about this.

If this is plan B, what was plan A?

[Guest WastelandBoat]

Ahh its not too soon, I've been on T for a year and a half, and living as a man for nearly 3 years. Out at work, home, everything that needs to be done is done (at least in the state of Maryland) I have a male name now, legally and the way I sound and how I look now just due to the T; I could never go back. I'm at the point of no return. Not that I would ever wanna return ><. However in Florida they require SRS for you to have the right gender it on your drivers licence. And if I went down there -now- I would be outted, and it would be a living nightmare for me... and I want to go stealth.. So its no 'too soon'. Just sooner than I expected in my life right now. But what's gotta be done now gots to be done now.

Once this is done, its all over.

Plan A.. there was no plan A.

[Flint]

oh okay. Well yea in that case it's not too soon. It was hard to tell from your original post here, so I thought I better put that out there just in case.