New Self

[Guest dani83]

Hello everybody!

I used to access this forum from time to time but lost my former ID. Also, I find appropriate to create a new ID now because I'm closer than never to become the woman I should have been my entire life. I'm starting to assume that identity now, at least virtually, in every place that I can... In case you are wondering, my former screen name was Nibel, now I'm going by Dani which is a contraction for Daniela.

Laura's forum was always the place where I could be myself, but still, I find refreshing starting anew synchronized with my other "virtual personas" in Facebook, Google+ and so on. Its almost like I'm turning a page in my history where the days before today were just a sketch in a piece of paper and now I'm starting to draw the real deal.

Why today is so important, may you ask... actually, it's not really today, but the day after tomorrow when I will go over my first surgery, the hair transplant... I'm also very close to getting rid of my facial hair so the major obstacles in my life towards transitioning seems to be falling apart, finally!

Of course I know the results are not immediate but, in probably 3 to 4 months I'll be able to go out in the open without worrying with my baldness or beard... hopefully by Xmas I'll be Daniela entirely, at least within my family and friends.

There is still some worries in the work sector though. I'm not from USA but I work for a major US company and I'm trying to immigrate on the basis of an internal transfer. It has been a bit more difficult than I thought it would be, but hopefully I'll be able to do it in time for my final transition.

After much thought I've came to the conclusion that it won't be very safe to transition in my country, but if things go by the worst path I'm still doing it anyway. I'm 30 years old now, and I've promised myself that I won't expend another birthday as a man. It's too much suffering already.

Anyway, hopefully everything will go down the right path, and 2014 will be the best year of my life so far. Next step: start training seriously on my voice, because soon enough I'll be needing it.

Kisses

Dani

[MaryEllen]

Welcome back to the Playground, Dani. I'm happy to hear that you're well on your way toward transitioning. I can access your old account and either delete it or merge it with your new one. Whatever way you would like.

MaryEllen

[Guest Carla_Davis]

Hi Dani,

Welcome Back to Laura's Playground.

I want to wish you continued Success and Happiness on your Journey.

Take steps slowly and enjoy every day to the Fullest.

Hugs,

Carla

[Guest dani83]

Welcome back to the Playground, Dani. I'm happy to hear that you're well on your way toward transitioning. I can access your old account and either delete it or merge it with your new one. Whatever way you would like.

MaryEllen

Thanks for the welcome back Mary. Actually I don't mind if you delete the former account because I feel that I'm a very different person now. Back then I was pretty confused about being cross dresser or transexual, but now everything has cleared up and I have different challenges up ahead. Unless, of course, for historic purposes my former posts coul help anybody, I'm totally cool with deleting that account and keeping this one instead.

Thanks!

[Carolyn Marie]

Welcome home, Dani. I congratulate you for your successes so far, in a place where achieving such success is more difficult than many others. Brazil seems to me to be a place of many contradictions, particularly in regards to its treatment of trans folk.

You may see a lot of new faces here, but the rules haven't changed much since you left. You might want to give them a once over, particularly the rules regarding videos and such.

I eagerly await more of your posts, hon. Take care.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest dani83]

Welcome home, Dani. I congratulate you for your successes so far, in a place where achieving such success is more difficult than many others. Brazil seems to me to be a place of many contradictions, particularly in regards to its treatment of trans folk.

You may see a lot of new faces here, but the rules haven't changed much since you left. You might want to give them a once over, particularly the rules regarding videos and such.

I eagerly await more of your posts, hon. Take care.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

Thanks for your words Carolyn. You hit on the jackpot when you say Brazil is a place with many contradictions. While most of people from other countries usually see the Brazilian people as open minded, specially about sex, when it comes to transgenders, or better, LGBT in general, the Brazilian people is very conservative. I'm planning to leave here as soon as possible, and I'm making everything that I can in order to do that.

You don't need too much effort looking on the internet for news about hate crimes towards LGBT people in Brazil, so I don't feel safe transitioning here and since me and my wife are staying together after the transition, we will be seen as lesbians which will make us a target as well.

But, while I'm still here that doesn't mean that I will stop my transition, no way!

Last Thrusday I've made my hair transplant surgery to cure that awful male pattern baldness that has been cursing me since I was 16 years old. Now I'm looking like I've been hit by a truck, but still I'm very happy since it was such a huge step towards my transition.

Hopefully the next steps will be done in a safer place, but no pressure, let's see what life have reserved to me. I'm doing everything that I can to immigrate, but if my destiny is to face the transition here I accept that challenge as well.

Kisses

Dani