An awesome day in a totally new situation

[Guest]

Today I went trough many firsts since i've gone full time.

I had to take public transport. It's kind of scary for me. First because bus are a place where I was victim of a lot of intimidation/abuse in my youth because of my apparently feminine ways. Second because all sorts of people take the bus and some are bound to juge me.

The thing that is new for me since i'm full time is how much more people stare at me. I'm never sure why they do, if it's positive or negative. At some point I just stopped bothering.

Second I was at a convention at a local congress center and there were a lot of people, lots of woman in the woman bathroom, lots of people in general.

I'm quite happy to report first of all that I was called "madam (madame)" all day long and nobody ever said "mister (monsieur)". This is very nice since somedays i'm being called mister even though I have breast, large hips, makeup, earings, dress, thights, etc. It's still very strange to me after a life of "stealth" to be called "madam", to be treated like a woman, to be pointed at as an example in conferences when they say something about woman (hey there's not a lot of woman in computer science, especially in the narrower C++ programmer field). At some point one of the man that was presenting a conference said something against us woman and the other girls were looking at each other. I notice at that point that a lot where looking at me too. Nobody ever looked at me strange in the bathroom too. At one point a guy talked to me and was very (very, if you know what I mean) nice. The only problem is that in his optimism of seeing woman in computer science field he said something like : "us man are more action oriented, it's a good thing to have woman in our teams because they are more deliberative, they like to talk in the bathroom with each other and stuff" .... yeah....

it was one of those microclimate days of total womanhood where I was not thinking at all about anything remotely fake or masculine. I was Marie and the whole being born with a male body thing was totally absent from my mind.

[Guest aballofquestions]

that sounds really great Marie! Im glad you had such a good day!

-Alexis

[Charlize]

I love the description of your day and the wonderful experiences you had as well. Living as yourself while fully engaged in society is simply a wonderful experience. Enjoy the firsts as they will be common soon.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Guest Kayla Grace]

looks like a classic case of male fail. congrats, Marie

[StephanieVikingGirl]

Hi Marie,

Congratulations on having such a wonderful day. I am not yet full time myself, but I hope to follow in your footsteps sometime soon. Thanks for showing me the way.

hugs,

Stephanie

[Guest]

:score:

Congratulations on your Male Fail, Marie.

Life does get better.

I had a similar day yesterday as well.

Huggs,

Joann

[Guest]

Mmm. Love me some full girl days. Soon it will be that all the time and I'll look backing going, "Hmm, when was the last time I was dressed as a guy?" Hahahaa.

Glad you had a great day.

God bless

Ashley

[Guest Jamie61]

Marie, I am very please to hear about your progress especially in such an environment filled with people. It feels like your surrounded sometimes because you are and to be understood as female at that moment is a great feeling!

Way to go girl!

Jamie