An update: first time out! etc

[Guest Kendra K]

Been a while since I've done an update. Seems quite a bit has changed in the last year. As far as the CD/MTF I still don't have a clue, but it kind of doesn't matter since unless I'm suicidal or something to that extent, I'm not transitioning, which would mean divorce and I definitely don't want that.

I got in touch with a local transgender group. Back in the fall I went to their "meeting", which is just getting together in a bar to talk. I just had nails painted; fingers showing and toes not showing.

Well then I went out one more time during a non-meeting night. I sat at the bar, again just fingers painted showing, and ended up conversing with a CIS girl at the bar. We had a good time talking. We ended up exchanging numbers, I really can't remember who brought it up. She and I have become close, through texting and meeting up. We met at the bar a couple times.

Then it happened..... I went out as Kenra!

Her boyfriend cross-dresses. So I went to their place to get ready. I have zero experience with makeup, so they did it for me and showed me. The night before I got my nerve up and bought my first dress, a maxi dress from Gordman's. Underneath I had tight panties for a gaff and a full nude shapewear. She borrowed me a clutch and he had bought a couple pairs of shoes, I wore white sandals. I had a bracelet, necklace, and he borrowed me earrings.

It was really wonderful to be out as Kendra. I was enjoying the drag show (with some CIS girls). Afterward there was dancing, I got convinced to dance even though that's not my thing. They said I could keep the clutch and the shoes. Can't wait to do it again.

One thing that has gotten tougher, my wife is jealous of my new friend. This winter on my way back from my Dad's I had stopped off at my friend's place (this was before she met her boyfriend). It was late. I got home and told my wife that I stopped by there. She was upset about that, saying that "married people just don't go to a single person's place at that time of the night". I told her I have no interest that way in her and she doesn't in me. I also pointed out that all my friends are women, that my women friends were even on my side in our wedding party. Things have gotten a little better, I've offered that she can text my friend to get to know her, but she hasn't taken up on the offer yet.

So lots of changes, good for the most part.

[Guest Carla_Davis]

Hi Kenra,

Congratulation's on your wonderful progress and meeting your new friends

I have to agree, it is always a Good Feeling to be our True Self .

I could understand your wife being upset.

If your wife approves, maybe she could assist you with the makeup.

Wishing you Success and Happiness in your Journey.

Hugs,

Carla

[gennee]

Congratulations on taking that first step. It gets better.

[Carolyn Marie]

That's a whole lot of progress, Kenra. It took courage to go out to that bar, especially en femme. I'm glad you now have an ally or two, folks who will teach you some important things. I wish you continued luck and continued good terms with your wife.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

[Guest honeynocturnal]

Congratulations Kenra! I'm really looking forward to my first time out in public, coming soon! So liberating!

[Guest Kendra K]

That's a whole lot of progress, Kenra. It took courage to go out to that bar, especially en femme. I'm glad you now have an ally or two, folks who will teach you some important things. I wish you continued luck and continued good terms with your wife.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

Well not completely brave, it was a tg-gay bar. Still I was definitely worried about running into someone I knew.