Stuck between sides

[DeeDee]

8 hours ago, Victoria94 said:

So it just slipped out of me and whe ended up talking about it for the remaining 2 hour drive I had left. It felt weird at first, but he have a lot of friends in the community and told me to come over to his town. He knew a few people who could help in various ways.

Victoria, that is wonderful news! You still have your friend, plus he may prove to be a real help for you moving forwards. I'll bet that 2hrs just flew past!

[Victoria94]

Well DeeDee

The first 15 minutes was really akward and all I could think of was "what have I done"

But after that the talk went really well. The worries went away as we talked a little about the topic and switched to another topic for a little while and then back. It was like just any other conversation.

Im a bit scared but I feel a sligth relief as some weigths have been lifted off.

 

Victoria

[Elizabeth Star]

The first time is the hardest. I couldn't tell you how many times, over the last few months, I found myself in that same type of awkward situation.

[Victoria94]

Hello everyone. Been a while since I went on here and wrote, but it has been a really stressfull time. With both my inner struggle and a lot of working. (Yes I tend to work a lot of night shifts when I need to be by myself and think things over)

Wanted to keep everyone updated since you all have been so welcoming and offered so much help and inputs.

 

Since I told my friend about me ha have been very suportive. I told him I was gonna start growing my hair out, but everytime someone comented on how long my hair have become I usally ended up skinning it off. Which he offered me to use him as an "excuse" in that we had both agreed to save our hair to some donation. And if anyone asked my if I was gonna cut it of soon they should call him.

 

He also helped me get through to my mother as well and got her to realise that I needed to tell her something. She have been maybe a bit to suportive to be hones.? She started telling me about other people in the same situation as me as if she was teaching me about the subject, but dhould have realised that she would be a bit much to handle. Had to stop her when she asked if I wanted her to tell my sister about me. Honestly I know she wants to help, but telling my sister should be up to me. And she is coming home tomorow. I am really wondering how and when to tell her and how she will react.

All in all I really start to look brighter on things. Might gonna relocate to a bigger town where there is a comunity I can lean on. But for now I am going to the doctor on monday and ask to be sent up to my therapist again and start up where I left things.

 

I just have to say thanks to you all as well. It was a little nudge from you all, but it set things in motion again and made me feel better.

 

Love

Victoria