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JennaLSinclair

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Day one of HRT started today! ❤️ I'm going to try to take daily pictures so I can do one of those Trans timeline thingies. 

 

Thank you everyone! I wouldn't have gotten to this stage without your help.

 

❤️❤️❤️

The Lady Jenna

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18 minutes ago, JennaLSinclair said:

Day one of HRT started today! ❤️ I'm going to try to take daily pictures so I can do one of those Trans timeline thingies. 

 

Thank you everyone! I wouldn't have gotten to this stage without your help.

 

❤️❤️❤️

The Lady Jenna

Congrats!!!!!  You can probably get away with weekly. Lol. But u do u!  Good luck with your move next week!

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On 4/14/2022 at 12:23 PM, JennaLSinclair said:

Day one of HRT started today! ❤️

Congratulations on starting your HRT regimen, @JennaLSinclair. I hope you enjoyed that first dose as much as I did. It’s the start of a beautiful thing…pun intended😘


My Best,

Susan R🌷

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Thank you @Susan R! I feel a lot more calmer than I ever have. This is the best I felt in years. There was always something in the back of my head just screaming and it's no longer there. It was like a major case of imposter syndrome. I felt like I wasn't right. I always felt that there was something wrong with me. And now I don't feel that anymore. I feel like I am on the right path. I wonder if this is how normal is supposed feel like?

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19 minutes ago, JennaLSinclair said:

I wonder if this is how normal is supposed feel like?

Well, normal is a subjective term but I can say that most days I wake up much happier than any day prior to transition and if that’s my ‘new’ normal, I’ll take it! 😃

 

That’s great news, @JennaLSinclair!

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Congratulations on starting @JennaLSinclair!!

 

For me, it’s a brave step.

I didn’t notice dramatic visual results but over time it does things.  E did lower my T immediately though.

 

Hope you find what you’re looking for 😊🌈🌈

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As far as holidays go, I'm beginning to like Easter. It has given me a sense of rebirth and renewal. It's kind of cathartic in a way. I think this move is going to be good for me. ❤️

 

Easter has special meaning to me this year. This is the first time I am actually comfortable with being myself. I am feeling reborn. 

 

My wife and I are going to brunch at 1:00 p.m. today. Sunday brunch is big in DC. That's the thing to do here. I am also going to meet my landlord today to get the keys to my new place!

 

Not much packing today. That will be done in full force starting tomorrow!

 

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Okay,

 

I moved into my new place and my separation has thoroughly begun. My wife wants to do a legal separation. I really don't see us getting back together, I am thinking to go ahead and pull the trigger and file for divorce.

 

I hate to say it. Unless she's going to do a major change it's not going to work out. I am not going back into the closet. I lived 44 years like that. I refuse to take a single step back into that damned closet. Not again.

 

I am loving my new place. I mean check out this view. Any of you ladies are more than welcome to come visit.

 

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Jenna

 

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You certainly have a bird's eye view of the area!  Enjoy that ever changing perspective.   I hope you relationship issues resolve themselves so both of you can find peace .

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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9 hours ago, JennaLSinclair said:

I am not going back into the closet. I lived 44 years like that. I refuse to take a single step back into that damned closet. Not again.

Yeah, you can't really go back.

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I feel old and hitting the wall

 

I sing chants of yearning for

freedom and love and mercy,

into a black cave that breathes

acrid gases and mysterious air.

I sing her name for her sake, I

sing her name for other sakes.

Resurrection be mine!

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Still around! Still kicking! Lot of positive changes. I am fully out at work. Fully out around where I live. Coming out to my parents soon. They're my last step. I am so lucky I found such a wonderful community here in DC. I thought I would be stuck in my apartment with nothing to do, it's the opposite! I almost have too much to do!

 

My church even did a special event for me coming out! I'm in minute 38, but the entire service is wonderful!

 

https://youtu.be/dIcTQLR0im0

 

 

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10 hours ago, JennaLSinclair said:

My church even did a special event for me coming out!

That was nice.  It's great that they accept you.  I wish all congregations were as accepting.

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On 12/8/2022 at 10:12 PM, JennaLSinclair said:

My church even did a special event for me coming out! I'm in minute 38, but the entire service is wonderful!

This is such an uplifting update🙂. Having the support of your church is so encouraging considering what’s going on around the country with the anti-trans proposed legislation and propaganda these days. You’ve found a wonderfully supportive church community!

 

I especially love the part of your video at 42 minute mark when the clergy member says in front of the congregation, “Jenna, We see you and celebrate you!” She says it with such conviction. Also, the responses from the congregation shouting, “We do!”, gave me chills. Wow!!

 

Thank you for sharing this,

Susan R🌷

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