Good morning All. Coffees on.

[itselysemarie]

@MmindyThey're like...relaxation videos, basically. 
 

...and in other news, I feel like I need to spend some time with Jane soon.

[Emily michelle]

It won’t be until after my orchiectomy next month but that is when my supervisors will be told. Next will be the different sites I go to on a regular basis when they are told they will all be required to sign a paper stating that harassment will not be tolerated. Apparently I’m not there first trans employee but I’m there first female field mechanic.

 

Mmindy I used to work on Mack’s everyday I will always have a soft spot in my heart for them. Now I haven’t touched one in a few years. Once I started working on heavy equipment I pretty much stopped working on trucks. I might work on one if I want an easy day lol. Snap-on used to be my best friend I actually just got him paid off finally. That’s the one nice thing about being in a service truck I don’t see the tool truck often haha.

[Susan R]

2 hours ago, itsxanderkaidyn said:

...also is it weird that I find her voice to be almost like a form of ASMR?

I am one of those individuals who only recently...within the last few years learned about ASMR. I’ve been someone who experiences it very easily. Few people in my circle knows what it is but I am an ASMR junkie. Even as a child I would get one of my siblings to tickle my back...like a feather with very light touch. I would drive them crazy. I have recently been able to find videos with tones that can help me experience these same internal feelings of euphoria. It would not surprise me that her voice could be a trigger for ASMR. I have a dozen or so ways I can trigger these feelings. Everyone is different. I am just glad I am one of the few that can access them very easily. My wife doesn’t understand it (or experience it) but at least she knows it makes me feel good so she will help me out on occasion. It’s nice to meet someone else who understand the meaning of this.

[JustineM]

Hope everyone is having a great day.  The coffee today was hot, kinda weak and.... pink.  LOL  Tried a limited time blend from the gas station.  Can't say the I was impressed.  Having a relaxing day today, got to run to the store here in a little bit for a few things.  Other than that going to have a spa night tonight, going to try that facial treatment my Sister sent me.  Should go to the gym but just not feeling it today.  

[AngelaC]

My wife Jill and I having a talk this morning,said she wants to have the GRS and told her I support her 100% on this.She knew I would support her,it is her choice and not mine changing her decision.Told her I will still love her as a post op trans woman.Knows I am happy as a pre op still and is a win/win situation for both of us.I love the 5 inch hoop earrings she bought me for my birthday present.

[itselysemarie]

Oh god.

 

Just when I thought I couldn't find any other reasons to be emotional over Jane today, I went into my tumblr inbox to find that somebody had left me a really, really sweet message in the form of a letter as though it was written from her to me.

[Audrey]

Popular thread today, so much to catch up on! Forgive me if I missed anything major...

 

I tackled one of the closets today... so much dust accumulated in there over the years. Feeling pretty accomplished. Lots of stuff I'm going to rid of, but made a discovery that apparently I own a pair of binoculars that I totally forgot about! They'll be great for bird watching maybe, but I don't have the first clue about birds. Also found a small TV still in the box.

 

ASMR is a fascinating thing to me. I don't really understand it too well or seek out those sorts of experiences, but I do know the sensations - certain musical pieces give me that feeling, at least what I think is ASMR. I have friends who swear by it though. I should ask them about it.

 

My celebrity crush? Audrey Hepburn. She was amazing. ?

 

@CBabe Great pic!

 

Love,

~Audrey.

[LaurenA]

My namesake is my crush, Lauren Bacall.  My voice goal is to sound like her is I can.

 

Today I wore a dress around the house for the first time.  No euphoria, it just felt comfortable and right.

My SO agreed with my color choice.

Dresses are NOT warm enough for the upper Midwest,  I had to add leggings and a sweater.

[Elizabeth Star]

Wow! A page and a half since I stopped in at lunch.

 

My 6 hours day at work was extremely slow and being the only one there I had a really hard time keeping my eyes open. Our new home is missing a few things my wife feels are essential. The garbage disposal and coffee cup rack she ordered came in. There's no electrical for the disposal so I get to do that too. I can and have done it before, just don't really want to. While I was out buying electrical parts I got another half dozen smart bulbs. I just need 2 more and all the lights in the house can be controlled via Alexa. All hail the wire-tap.......I mean Alexa. At least something around here listens to me. Anyways, those smart bulbs will definitely test your patience. Thankfully I have a lot more lately. I'll deal with the disposal and installing a new garage door opener tomorrow.

[LaurenA]

@ElizabethStar Ah yes the joys of home ownership and moving into a new home.  Way too many items on the todo list.  Be careful how smart you make your home.  The IOT is known for easy hacking.  At the very least don't do it to your door locks.

[Elizabeth Star]

1 hour ago, LaurenA said:

At the very least don't do it to your door locks.

Thanks for reminding me. *grabs phone and locks the door*

[Willow]

Good evening

 

wow what a lot of posts today.

 

@LaurenA I know exactly what you mean. When it feels right you know you are right.  Unfortunately for me I only have one true winter dress.  Most of mine are summer.   
 

I can’t say I have a celebrity crush,  but when I was young there were several my age that I envied.  Part of my being but not knowing I as a trans girl.  
 

Willow
 

 

[Jani]

@LaurenAI love Lauren Bacall too.  She was marvelous in Applause back in the early 70's.  

[KymmieL]

11 hours ago, Willow said:

I can’t say I have a celebrity crush,  but when I was young there were several my age that I envied.  Part of my being but not knowing I as a trans girl.  
 

Willow

I do remember having my fair share. From well known to unknown bit parts. but I do remember deep down it was wanting to be them. Look like them.

 

Kymmie

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, KymmieL said:

Look like them.

 

To be fair, I STILL want to look like Linda Carter. How am I younger than she is? She looks amazing!

 

Hugs!

[KathyLauren]

10 hours ago, Jani said:

@LaurenAI love Lauren Bacall too.  She was marvelous in Applause back in the early 70's.  

 

My mother picked my middle name after Lauren Bacall.  Well, no she didn't; she never knew the real me.  But that's my story and I'm sticking to it.

 

[Willow]

2 hours ago, KymmieL said:

I do remember having my fair share. From well known to unknown bit parts. but I do remember deep down it was wanting to be them. Look like them.

 

Kymmie

I suppose Maureen McCormick was my biggest crush. But there were others, like you say, lesser known. It would take surgery ala James Bond bad guys to look like I really want and that’s never going to happen.

 

It’s a beautiful beautiful morning (if you know the rest of the lyrics continue on please). The birds were singing their happy songs.  Unfortunately, it was cold last night and will be again tonight.  Because we are cloudless!  But that’s ok the sun and blue sky make it all good.

 

If we weren’t staying home before, we sure are now.  Between the regular Covid numbers being so high and now the variant.  At least our zipcode seems to have peaked and is slowly retreating.  
 

enjoy your day  

 

Willow

[Guest]

Good morning. My better half just retreated to the kitchen to make coffee and I’ll be joining her soon. My youngest daughter turned 21 yesterday and we had a smaller than planned gathering for her due to snow and slick roads. My oldest girl and her boyfriend made it over and she brought me some makeup that she thought I might like. All three girls know and are very supportive. Yeah, I’m counting my blessings.

 

Me and my therapist will be working on the “letter” during our next session. I’m re-reading all the effects and side effects of the magic potions and am trying to be patient and not get my hopes up. After all, it’s that tangle of nerves behind the eyes that matters most and everything else will be window dressing.

 

Peace, love and elbow bumps,

 

Erica

 

 

[KymmieL]

1 hour ago, Willow said:

I suppose Maureen McCormick was my biggest crush. But there were others, like you say, lesser known. It would take surgery ala James Bond bad guys to look like I really want and that’s never going to happen.

 

Willow

Erse stovel bofelt. 

 

I think it would be easier to just clone,  Denise Richards  and put my brain in.  Maybe younger. Than all the surgery. LOL 

 

Kymmie 

[Audrey]

Good morning all! Hope you are well today.

 

Partner and I are doing brunch together at home this morning. We're making cinnamon French toast out of challah, it's going to be so decadent that I feel like I'll need to run a half marathon afterwards.

 

Going to try to clean out another closet today. I'm pretty sure this one has a lot of my old boy clothes that I wore when I was much heavier than I am now. The idea of donating all of those things I'll never wear again is going to be quite liberating - and free up space for things I actually want to wear! I'm still astonished how I managed to accumulate so much over the years.

 

"Smart home" stuff scares me, to be honest. I feel like Alexa, Siri, or whoever is going to eavesdrop, hear me talking about something, and then "fire targeted marketing algorithm!" on the next several websites I visit. Privacy is an illusion, there's money to be made. Maybe I'm being paranoid, but I just can't shake the feeling there's more in it for the corporations than for me.

 

Enjoy your Sunday, everyone!

 

Love,

~Audrey.

[Ivy]

2 hours ago, Audrey said:

"Smart home" stuff scares me, to be honest. I feel like Alexa, Siri, or whoever is going to eavesdrop

Yeah, this.    I don't really need my house to be voice activated anyway.  They already know too much about me as it is.  There is no privacy online.  I just accept that I'm being tracked.  Sometimes the ad thing even works out.  But I just ignore most of it.

[Willow]

Hi,  smart home things like Alexa, I thought there was a lawsuit that was lost by Amazon, Google and Zuckerberg when they were caught listening to and even recording some things.  Cease and desist plus fines.  Am I mistaken?  Any of you techies know?  I just got an Alexa for my birthday from my daughter.  I don’t think I’ve fully set it up although it knows my Amazon prime  account.

 

So something I forgot to to mention was the results of my last 

psychologist appointment. Last is an operative word.  I am in remission.  No scheduled appointments.  But with the admonishment to contact her immediately if I started to get depressed again.   From the realm of the strange things discussed, I brought up that Willow didn’t go this time which segwayed into the discomfort from the seatbelt and having to buy a bra for the chaffing.  Not really a bra but not a sports bra either.  Anyway, She suggested I should get a camisole or tank top with a built in bra.  The irony is today what’s in my Facebook? A cami shaper with a bra.  Now I know for fact, Alexa, google nor Facebook heard our conversation.  
 

Wife and I talked about her depression and she now says there is nothing I can do, she has figured out that she has to fix a problem she has had all her life.

 

Willow

[itselysemarie]

I'm so overwhelmed by love for Jane it's unreal. Honestly, I don't know whether I want to be with Jane romantically, have her adopt me, or some combination of both. And yes, even though I'm in my thirties, and yes, even though she and I each have a family of our own that loves us dearly. The "found family" trope speaks to me in ways I often struggle to express, and I...I just have this feeling that I'm meant to be in her life irl in some way.

...sorry; I know this is dumb. I'll shut up now; carry on.

[KathyLauren]

1 hour ago, Willow said:

The irony is today what’s in my Facebook? A cami shaper with a bra.  Now I know for fact, Alexa, google nor Facebook heard our conversation. 

 

Did you by any chance Google bras or camis?  Because Google does pay attention to what you search for.  And many vendors blab to Google about what you search for on their sites.  Google blabs to Facebook about your searches.

 

I have lost track of how many times I have searched for something on a vendor's site (could be an electronic widget, a piece of jewellery, an item of clothing) and the very next time I am on Facebook, an ad for that very item (not just the vendor, but that specific item) pops up.  Once might be happenstance.  Twice might be a coincidence.  But three times is a conspiracy!

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, KathyLauren said:

But three times is a conspiracy!

 

So it's a conspiracy that internet ads keep showing me cute clothes that don't come in my size... Actually, that sounds about right. Carry on.

 

Hugs!