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On 5/1/2019 at 8:07 AM, Tessa said:

A Song 

 

 

I wake up to a bird’s song 

I hear the beautiful melody 

I would love to sing along 

could the song be about me

 

Birds were built to fly 

Do I have invisible wings 

Someday I would like to try 

Why do I thing on such things 

 

To fly away with someone 

Who truly loves me 

Oh, wouldn’t it be fun 

To be young and free

 

To pirch way up high 

Watching the world below 

To soar through the sky 

But this is what I know 

 

I am not a bird 

But I still can fly 

My voice can be heard 

I’ll tell you why 

 

We all have a song 

Burried deep inside 

Now let the bird’s sing along 

We have nothing to hide 

 

Let your invisible wings 

Take you where you want to go

You’ll discover new things 

This you already know 

 

Note: We all have invisible wings that exist around us. These wings are beautiful and delecate. Spread those wings and fly! Make a difference  in this world! Remember you are beautiful and unique and you add beauty to the world! 

 

Stay beautiful! 

 

Tessa👩‍🦳

 

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Dress

 

How do you pick an outfit 

Do you think much about it 

Beford you put it on 

Do you look at yourself in a mirror 

 

What colors do you choose 

Do you go by the way you feel

Are you picky with your style

Do you match everything 

 

Dressing is an intimate moment 

You get the chance to show who you are 

Do you dress for people or yourself 

You can’t choose your skin 

 

But you can choose what your in 

The world is watching who cares 

When I pick an outfit 

I have to feel good in it 

 

I won’t let people tell me what to wear 

I dress for me alone 

So dress how you feel dare 

Be who you are all day

 

Look back at yourself 

And say I am beautiful 

Feel that way all day 

Let that feeling be in you 

 

Let no one put you down 

Don’t put yourself down 

Enjoy who you are 

Let the world fade it’s only background 

 

Your the STAR!!!!🌈

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Hidden

 

Theres a hidden side in me 

A side hidden in my shadow 

Where only the shadow you can see

But it’s always following me 

 

A shadow never leaves you 

Though in the dark you can’t see it 

It will shine through 

As soon as the light hits it 

 

It is only a shape 

The shape of who you are 

In my shadow I can escape 

Together we can go far 

 

No one can see us here 

We remain only a spot 

Even if we should shed a tear 

See it, you cannot 

 

When will I step out of the shadow 

So all can see me 

when will I know 

That I’m finally free

 

By 

 

Tessa🌹

 

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Feelings 

 

I’m not feeling beautiful today

Is it I don’t want to feel that way

Who cares anyway 

Will this feeling fade away

 

Everything I’ve done is for others 

I leave no room for myself 

When I’m alone I’m empty

I don’t want to feel this way

 

I want to feel happy and loved 

I want to feel accepted 

I want to feel desired and loved 

These feelings are foreign to me

 

You will only find them in the characters 

That I write about in my stories

If I could be one of those characters 

Who is writing about me 

 

by

 

Tessa🌹

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To Be Loved Like That 

 

To wake up to being held 

And a kiss on the cheek 

All sadness expelled 

So much love it makes you weak 

 

To feel the warmth of a heart 

That belongs only to you 

For your love never to part

They will be with you through and through

 

To feel your lover upon your skin 

A touch that tells you your desired

 A beautiful feeling within 

A love that is truly inspired 

 

Tessa👩‍🦳

 

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Love Form

 

Love in it truest form

Is kind and sweet

It is so incredibly warm

Its like a candy you can eat

 

It doesn’t boast 

It wants to only be with you

Its real and not a ghost

If only people knew 

 

The touch of true love

Will always heal

It won’t push and shove 

It will cause you to feel

 

It doesn’t look at financial gain

It love the rich and poor 

It’s like a gentle rain 

That falls and then begins to pour 

 

True love is empty of pride 

It lives in sickness or health 

It doesn’t run and hide

it doesn’t care about wealth 

 

It looks inside your heart 

Not the shell you are in 

It loves your most vital part 

It praises you when you win

 

It breaks through your insecurities

It enriches your inner soul

It brings you new opportunities

It chooses to make you whole

 

It will never leave you empty 

You will always want more 

It will always have plenty 

True love is knocking at your door

 

True love is free

Anyone can give it out

True love is in you and me 

True love we can’t live without 

 

It searches to and fro

Looking for a heart to consume 

Its a friend not foe 

Its always has room 

 

If you’ve been touched by its power

Then you are under its spell

This is the hour 

To break out and yell

 

True love is coming for you

Just you wait and see

It will guide you through 

It will lead you to your destiny 

 

by Tessa

 

 

 

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Winters Grove 

 

Welcome to winter’s grove 

A secret place for love 

Where love burns in a stove

Love perches like a dove 

 

Me and my lover 

Hearts etched in a tree

Under winters cover 

My lover and me 

 

The cold of the winter snow

Our hearts keep us together

Only me and my lover know 

We are forever

 

With snow still falling 

I fall more and more in love

Winter is calling 

I thank God up above

 

A winter cold kiss

I taste the snow on my lover’s lips

This I will never miss

Oh how my heart flips 

 

Forever will stay 

In our winters grove 

Forever and a day 

Burning in loves stove

 

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