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By Stephie NC · Posted
I’m on my 3rd marriage, and all have failed because I just can’t tell the truth about who I am. -
By DrunkJam · Posted
You are super welcome! I think I can, but, I wonder whether, at this point, I have become hyper fixated on getting the very most accurate label, when really, I (and you) we are PERFECTLY valid and whole and awesome, no matter what the label looks like? -
By DrunkJam · Posted
hey @Max, I have not forgotten you! I have had my therapy day. Which is always a bit wobbly. But I have been thinking of you. What have you got going on today? -
By LarryNStar · Posted
Thank you so much. I think you can be a transmasc lesbian!!! -
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By StephanieJ · Posted
My driving license came back the other day in my new name and title!! Very busy couple of days changing everything over but other than my cars Log Book (owners paperwork), it’s all done 😁😁😁. I was also approached by a lady at work who had a side business doing nails and asked if I was interested, we had a little chat and now I get to have my nails at a reduced rate every 4 weeks as a ‘practice’ for her, she’s still learning certain things so I’m now her test dummy 🤣. Next big thing will be I’m August for this family holiday that I’m still dreading, but in September I will be taking the plunge and going private to go onto HRT. The nhs has pretty much stalled and I have the means to pay for it myself, so why not… -
By StephanieJ · Posted
I’m sorry this has happened to you and I hope things start to get better. Her reaction of saying “I’m not a lesbian” suggests she’s not against you transition entirely, but that sort of relationship just isn’t for her. As others have said, definitely hold of on the name change for now, it just complicates everything. Also, have you truly put yourself in her position? 25 years of loving someone, building a life and planning a future together, all just gone. She may just need time and space to absorb the information, go through the emotions and then be able to proceed logically. -
By StephanieJ · Posted
For me, it’s the way I have treated people in the past in an effort to conceal who I really am. I spent years in relationships that I knew would fail, just to try and validate my existence as a male. I have hurt people in ways I could never forgive myself for and don’t think I will ever come to terms with this or find true inner peace with myself because of it. I often feel like I don’t deserve the happiness I have now. It’s the main cause of my inability to sleep and recurring nightmares. My ex and I have stayed ‘friends’ although becoming more distant over time, but I also know her life is in a pretty bad way because of me. -
By April Marie · Posted
I am so sorry to hear that your wife has not been able to adjust. As Kathy says, half of marriages dissolve after one partner comes out as trans. I agree with her that waiting to change your name until after the separation/divorce is the best way to go. She may, at some time and it's counter-productive to anger her even more now. -
By Pema · Posted
I suspect "turmoil" is a stronger word than is warranted, but I'll go with: Seeing people continue to engage in behaviors that they know are harmful to them. No matter how much I care for them and express my love and willingness to support them, they are ultimately responsible for their own choices and their own lives. When they just can't seem to free themselves from self-destructive patterns, I find it genuinely heartbreaking. I'm very much an "accept that things are as they are" person, but that doesn't mean I don't feel the pain. @Jamma, this is so spot-on. You see it, you're addressing it, and your acknowledging that it takes time and persistence. That's caring for yourself, and it's a clear sign that you DO value yourself. THIS is the way, friend. SO MUCH this! Of all the things to lie about, telling someone they're amazing and that you love them would be a pretty odd one. And there are almost people in our lives that we love/like/respect who tell us they feel similarly about us, so if we genuinely mean it when we say (even if only to ourselves) that we feel that way about them, how could we then say, "Except that they have terrible taste in friends?" Why not just go with it and feel good? -
By DrunkJam · Posted
I very much understand this, and am working on this all the time every day. The thing I try to tell myself is, I have people (not many, but...) who STAY in my life, who communicate with me every day, even though, they have no obligation to do so (and I struggle more because, I *must* be awful, because the people who ARE obliged to stay, did not) and these people, who stay in my life, tell me, all the time, that I am amazing because I do x, or I am kind because I x, or that they love me. or any number of wonderful things. And it is hard to hear that sometimes. BUT... *I* say lovely things to people all the time, and I *mean* them, and *want* to be believed. And it CANNOT, even just statistically be true that ONLY *I* tell the truth. So, I TRY to accept the positive things, because the people deserve to be believed. That's my starting point. And, honestly, it brings much better feelings than the alternative. -
By KathyLauren · Posted
I am sorry to hear that things are not going well for your marriage. That is not uncommon: 50% of marriages end when one member comes out as trans. I am sorry that that applies to yours. You can't make her accept you if she doesn't. I don't see anything to be gained by changing your name without her approval. It does sound petty, to be honest, and it will likely make her an enemy for life. I recommend waiting until the dust settles on your relationship, and then proceeding with whatever transition steps you wish to take. -
By DrunkJam · Posted
Very safe, and far away *hug* My kids are neurodivergent. I look... Ummmm, NOT normie. My charitable colleagues would say "memorable". My friends would say, by the time I leave the house, it's a very specific LGBTQ+ coded thing. I don't have parents / family, OTHER than my kids (19 + 12) so I basically do get to do / present / be whatever I want. My kids are used to me. People role play in all kinds of situations. And, actually, for a lot of people (especially neurodivergent people) they are really, really useful ways of working out interactions and being. I'm old and I have never not been who I am. I am not ill, or wrong, or delusional because I am, whatever this kind of transmasculine kind of lesbian (I mean, it might not even be technically possible to be both of those things at once, but, this is where I have landed for right now, and so what?) -
By DrunkJam · Posted
Having SAID I will be circumspect, I have both blackcurrant jam (which is a *little* too set for my liking, but this is because blackcurrants are high pectin, and the jam sugar contains pectin. I could have fixed that) AND have a carrot, apple and pecan spiced cake in the oven (which MAY turn out well, and then get cream cheese frosting, for gifting tomorrow. Because habits are tricky things. I feel a bit bad about my exams today. I told them afterwards that it was a good job they were practising, because we might have had to fail all of them die to the sheer amount of wild rule breaking (which might mean the exam board cancels ALL our exams) merryn's little friend seems to have taken it to heart. The job (there are actually 2 of them) is open ended real contract and proper LSA. which is supporting extra needs kids through ALL of school, not just exams. I didn't know, but my manager printed out all the stuff, and I hand wrote a letter of interest over my lunch break, and she typed it up and sent it in for me! If I don't get it, it will be fine, there are issues with staying just in school. -
By KateHM · Posted
At Christmas I came out as trans, and wife of 25 years did not take it well. A bit of an understatement to be fair as the first thing she said was, "I want a divorce, I'm not a lesbian!" Six months on and we've been doing counselling, but it's not been going well. The happier I've become the worse it has gotten, and today's session ended with her having said "I want to separate" 5 times and the counsellor effectively threw in the towel. We have one more session in a month's time, but by that time she will have spent 10 days on holiday without me. I have delayed changing my name legally because I wanted her approval, hoping things would be better. Now I recognise they aren't going to be and I don't want her to have her wish of divorcing me as my dead name. I just want to move on as me at this point. It may seem petty, but at this stage I'm seriously considering changing my name legally without her approving. Any thoughts would be appreciated.
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