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Susan, prayers to you for your  loss. 

 

Kymmie 

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Susan, my condolences. So sorry to hear of your loss.

So I'm posting latish long past coffee.

It was a busy day, finally completed the last drawing. Fifty hours of work. Whew.

But it looks nice. I don't usually "do" living things, but managed to get the animals likeness, correct blazes and markings, the correct look in the eyes. I'm pretty pleased with the work. Sure hope the client is too.

TA

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Home finally, got dinner in me. Coffee later.

 

For some odd reason I have been upset at work. Thinking every time either the phone rings or someone pulls up. go the F away. Thankfully we are closing at 7:30. I don't know why. I think it may be my dysphoria. I have been thinking more and more about my transition. I want to be Kymmie so bad it is scary. I want to be me and finally be truly happy for once.

Thinking back in my life. There were times that I was happy, when my sons were born. When my grand kids were born. Something keeps telling me that I was never really happy growing up. Don't know why.  Tonight I even had a fleeting thought about maybe I should get hooked on something to help me feel better. However I can't do that.

 

I will close for now. Sorry to have spilled myself like this.  Have a good evening every body.

 

Kymmie

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15 hours ago, Emily michelle said:

Sounds completely normal that is an everyday occourance where I work lol.

They don't realize this costs money to fix them.Our 6 other drivers,they fill up before going to the site called out to seeing the fuel gauge too.We give them a fuel card and it is for filling up the tow trucks only

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6 hours ago, Debra Michelle said:

They don't realize this costs money to fix them.Our 6 other drivers,they fill up before going to the site called out to seeing the fuel gauge too.We give them a fuel card and it is for filling up the tow trucks only

Unfortunately it’s not there money so they don’t care. It used to drive me nuts when I worked on trucks because they would always be in the middle of no where.

 

i love your message Oh_Kay!

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Sorry for your loss Susan. My Dad died of cancer in 2004. I miss him. Just remember the good times you had with him. 
 

On a lighter note. Did 12 hours on the phone yesterday. I only get an hour lunch and 2 15 min breaks. Constant calls about extending loans but I did get some payments yesterday. Sad stories. I try to comfort as best I can with still maintaining call time. Not easy. Movies in the background and reading my old journals helps but it still gets stressful. Decided to reward myself with Runza drive through. That’s about all we can do these days. Watched a movie on utube and called my mom. Then bed. Trying to maintain a new normal. I wore my red dress to the office. Ha! The office is my kitchen! Sun dresses. Can they be washed like regular clothes? I take a hot bath every morning, breakfast, pick out the movies to play in background, then work. I’m done by 7. Half the day gone but at least I can feel that I’m doing something productive. Working on my story and I’m posting funny Tic Toc’s. I use to have a puppet ministry and recently I started making funny skits and posting them! One got 1124 views and 90 likes! Laughter is important in dark times like these. Doing my part. I also have established to not watch the news as much. It has made a huge difference in my anxiety! Well. I need to finish my bath and eat and get ready to be the Customer Service Rock Star! I named myself Extension Man! I’m here to save your car,boat,RV, and help you keep your credit and your sanity. Have NO fear the “Extension Man” is here! It’s a plane, no a train, no it’s “Extension Man” have a good day you guys! 
 

ps. Susan your in my prayers. ?

 

love you all 

 

Tessa ?‍?

 

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Long early morning commute. 

Coffee but lots of black ice still. 

But oonly in some spots and not huge patches.  BUT always around a corner so you don't see it until your on it.  

Pucker factor 1000.

 

Have a wonderful day all.

 

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11 hours ago, KymmieL said:

I have been thinking more and more about my transition. I want to be Kymmie so bad it is scary. I want to be me and finally be truly happy for once.

Thinking back in my life. There were times that I was happy, when my sons were born. When my grand kids were born. Something keeps telling me that I was never really happy growing up. Don't know why.

Reading this makes me want to give you a hug.

I realize this may seem like nit-picking, but the way we think affects who we are and how we express ourselves.

You ARE Kymmie.

You just don't get to let her out as much as you'd like. But just remember who you are and that will work things out in its own way.

TA

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1 hour ago, Suzanne1 said:

Pardon my ignorance, but I'm not familiar w/ the name; is this person a celebrity of some nature??  [I'm afraid that's an area in which I am quite knowledge-deficient.]

 

Interesting message.  For all its succinctness, it certainly has band-width. ?    Best wishes.

Danielle is a bestselling Canadian author, inspiration speaker, and blogger. I follow her and I am on her mailing list. She sends out daily inspirations.

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Wow, now that you mention it, I guess it is open to interpretation. My take is that we are here to heal ourselves. 

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39 minutes ago, Suzanne1 said:

The message references the word "heal."  Does it mean you're here to heal others?  Or does it mean that you're here (i.e., a given place?) to be healed?

 

 

I don't know the author's intention, but I read it both ways. 

 

Kathy

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I defiantly take it as healing oneself. with help from others and yourself.

 

well just finished my telehealth speech appointment. It is going good. Coffee finished as well. Tasted good on a slightly dreary morning. However temps are looking better as of Sunday. 61, then up to 71 by Wednesday. Yeah!!!

 

Going with my last post above. I am doing better then again I am off today, I suspect it will show up once I get back to work.

It was quite bad, I even thought of saying F it and placing a post on Facebook telling the whole world. Who I really am. Then about 98% of my family and a good majority of people who I went to school with. along with others will know. I am lucky I don't have facebook on my phone or I may have done it.

 

Kymmie

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Just want to thank all of you lovely people for all the condolences yesterday ?. I am doing so much better today.  Right now, I’m having lunch salad with my beautiful wife along with a very ‘plain Jane’ coffee and cream.

 

Susan R?

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1 hour ago, Susan R said:

along with a very ‘plain Jane’ coffee and cream.

Susan R?

That is the only way I drink coffee. Plain coffee with 3 sugars and a cream. I don't go for all the fancy coffees, espressos and other stuff. I done even use a flavored creamer.

 

Today was a better day. Help my son work on his project car. I didn't even break a nail. (yea) Was able to talk with my cousin who I haven't talked to since 91. We are FB friends, thou. Inside now, (duh, on my computer) it is 36 and raining out now.

 

Kymmie

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Hi

 

I hadn’t had much to say today.  I did power wash my boat earlier and we are getting storms now.  Nothing serious.

 

@KymmieL I have to admit I closed my Facebook account for a couple reasons.  I was tired of the bickering over Trump and the haters of everything.  They even turned to hating things they once supported just because Trump was. Now trying to do it.  The other reason was I did not want to accidentally out myself.  I had lots of friends from various stages in my life but not any that knew about being transgender and I wanted to keep it that way.  Now I kinda wish that I had accidentally ousted myself.  Go figure.

 

I do have a separate Facebook account for Willow but really only for support groups.

 

Be safe everyone

 

Willow

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My facebook is used by me and my wife. She loves playing farmville 2 on it. Anymore if I go on it more than once a week it is rare.

 

Kymmie

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12 hours ago, Susan R said:

Just want to thank all of you lovely people for all the condolences yesterday ?. I am doing so much better today.  Right now, I’m having lunch salad with my beautiful wife along with a very ‘plain Jane’ coffee and cream.

 

Susan R?

Nice to hear your doing better Susan. Remember the good times and treasure them in your heart. I didn’t know my Dad very well. He died of cancer in 2004. My fondest memories are of me and him painting my car and is having a pop and Village Inn. My newest memory was a few years ago in a dream. I was walking through a green pasture and everyone was young and playing! The sky was a perfect picture blue. Then I saw him! He had his back to me but when he saw me we embraced in a hug and he told me he loved me. My Dad was in hospice and screaming out my name. The nurses called my mom to get a hold of me I was at work during the time. I left work and drove to see him. When I got there he couldn’t speak. I never knew what he wanted? He died shortly after. Maybe it wasn’t a big important life message? Maybe it was just to say he loved me. I’ll never know until I see him again. I say it was a dream but I felt like I left my body and came back to it that night. I will never forget this special moment. No other relatives that have died I have seen. Be comforted and know our family members still care about us even after death. You are loved and cherished and wanted. 
 

love 

 

Tessa?‍?

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Do you ever feel like you should have a film crew following you around all day?

Gosh my life reads like a crazy drama soap opera!!! LOL

Its so fun but GD it gets dramatic quick and then goes away.

Having my coffee now, 1/2 day at work and SOOOO looking forward to the weekend.

 

Have a wonderful day all!

 

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29 minutes ago, ShawnaLeigh said:

Do you ever feel like you should have a film crew following you around all day?

Gosh my life reads like a crazy drama soap opera!!! LOL

Its so fun but GD it gets dramatic quick and then goes away.

Having my coffee now, 1/2 day at work and SOOOO looking forward to the weekend.

 

Have a wonderful day all!

 

 

Yeah, no.

Today I'm going to the bakery, the pharmacy and the dentist. Whee.

I'll be trying out my new blender though. I guess that's going to happen.

Nothing to see here. Move along.

 

Hugs!

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