Good morning All. Coffees on.

[Elizabeth Star]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

Her other line of argument was that my asthma medication was responsible. I mean I did all that while I was on either no medication or unsafe levels of prednisone (which is a steroid... also that SHE gave me), but obviously I'm just confused because with the right injections she can get a low T horse to breed a mare.

Maybe they'll blame the covid vaccine and 5g towers too? Although I am still waiting to grow a tail from the vaccine. Found this in the wild.

 

 

[Jani]

@Linda Marie That is so nice of you to do this.  I'm sure there is a great need.  

[Heather Shay]

@Linda Marie excellent - that might be something I could look into. I have several projects I do to aid the community but this one looks like something I could do that is even more important. 

[ValerieRun]

2 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

Maybe they'll blame the covid vaccine and 5g towers too? Although I am still waiting to grow a tail from the vaccine. Found this in the wild.

 

 

I think a trip to one of those towers is now absolutely warranted ?

[Danni B.]

Good morning everyone.  Just finished up my morning run.  4 miles, last run before my race a week from tomorrow.  It'll be my first in person since since transitioning and hormones.  I'm nervously excited.  I was hoping my brother would be running with me but he's nursing some injuries.  Hope everyone is having a good day so far 

[Jackie C.]

4 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

Maybe they'll blame the covid vaccine and 5g towers too? Although I am still waiting to grow a tail from the vaccine. Found this in the wild.

 

 

 

I saw that too. I freakin' WISH. Bring on the 10G. ?

 

Hugs!

[Ivy]

15 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

she described a vast network that exists only to "trick" people into thinking that they're trans

I seriously doubt that many of us take this path lightly.

[Ivy]

3 hours ago, ValerieRun said:

I think a trip to one of those towers is now absolutely warranted ?

Oooooh!  Sign me up!

[Heather Nicole]

5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

That's why it was the last conversation. I can take a lot of abuse personally, but the second she disrespected my sisters, we were DONE. Haven't spoken to her in years.

 

But yeah, my man disguise wasn't even very good and she goes into this spiel about how my therapists (three independent therapists from different networks) were conspiring to trick me into thinking I was trans when really it was just a hormonal imbalance. Sure, the kid who used to turn his underwear around to hide their penis and wear a stolen bikini top (which she is never, ever getting back) under their shirt is "confused." Heck, I tried to castrate myself twice in middle school. That's apparently how confused I was.

Her other line of argument was that my asthma medication was responsible. I mean I did all that while I was on either no medication or unsafe levels of prednisone (which is a steroid... also that SHE gave me), but obviously I'm just confused because with the right injections she can get a low T horse to breed a mare.

 

This is a very common thing I've noticed people do: People decide to believe whatever they what to believe (ex: "there is no trans" or "all doctors are crooks", or in my late mother's case "everything can be healed through new age medicine and mind over matter has no limits"). Then, they create and implicitly believe any hypothetical story it takes to explain what they've already decided to believe.

 

Logic is basically turned on its head, and used (very very loosely) to support a pre-selected premise.

[Heather Nicole]

1 hour ago, Heather Nicole said:

 

This is a very common thing I've noticed people do: People decide to believe whatever they what to believe (ex: "there is no trans" or "all doctors are crooks", or in my late mother's case "everything can be healed through new age medicine and mind over matter has no limits"). Then, they create and implicitly believe any hypothetical story it takes to explain what they've already decided to believe.

 

Logic is basically turned on its head, and used (very very loosely) to support a pre-selected premise.

 

Put more simply, creative speculation is used as "proof" of whatever people have arbitrarily decided to believe.

 

I really wish logic was a core part of school curriculum, right there with arithmetic and basic literacy.

[Davie]

1 hour ago, Heather Nicole said:

 

This is a very common thing I've noticed people do: People decide to believe whatever they what to believe (ex: "there is no trans" or "all doctors are crooks", or in my late mother's case "everything can be healed through new age medicine and mind over matter has no limits"). Then, they create and implicitly believe any hypothetical story it takes to explain what they've already decided to believe.

 

Logic is basically turned on its head, and used (very very loosely) to support a pre-selected premise.

Right.

Medical help: That's like complaining to God he didn't deliver you across the river—after you just turned down the three boats He sent. Boats are the magic, doctors, too.

--Davie

[KathyLauren]

A local charity sells these rainbow benches.  We decided that we had to have one for our front deck.  That's me, with my own hair.  It is covid-long, but has no body, so it tucks up under my wig when I am wearing one.  When I am not wearing one, a hat is mandatory!

 

[Elizabeth Star]

1 hour ago, KathyLauren said:

A local charity sells these rainbow benches.  We decided that we had to have one for our front deck.  That's me, with my own hair.  It is covid-long, but has no body, so it tucks up under my wig when I am wearing one.  When I am not wearing one, a hat is mandatory!

 

Love it! 

[Jani]

You look darling Kathy!  Love the bench too.

 

Good Luck with your upcoming run @Danni B..  Even though your brother cannot be there I am certain you will run fast and all will be well.

 

Jani

[KymmieL]

13 hours ago, ValerieRun said:

I think a trip to one of those towers is now absolutely warranted ?

I agree. Now where to find one???

 

Well It happened at work again. I am getting no recognition. I passed my 5 yr mark the first week in April. Nothing was said. I am just going to do what my job entails. and possibly nothing more. While I know if they harass me about my being transgender could cost the their job. I just wonder what the general feeling is in the store, about me. probably the old weird f-er thinks he is a girl.

 

I don't give 2 shites about it. I am being me. F everyone who doesn't like it.

 

Sorry to be so brash, but it is my feelings.

 

Kymmie

[Ivy]

1 hour ago, KymmieL said:

I don't give 2 shites about it. I am being me.

Sometimes it seems to come to this…

[Jamie68]

On 5/7/2021 at 4:47 AM, Elizabeth Star said:

Here, since I never really explained what's going on with her health. She has PAH, Pulmonary Arterial Hypertension and Arachnophobia. The PAH causes a malfunction in the process of getting oxygen from her lungs to her bloodstream. In short, she always feels like she just ran up a flight of stairs. Her's is also what is called group 5, there no known cause. The the 4 other groups heart or lung transplants can help but these thing are not even am option for group 5. It is a progressive condition, medications only pause the progression and anything that upsets the apple cart causes it to get worse. No smoking, eating right and exercise are the best thing that you can do to slow it down.

 

Arachnoiditis is a pain disorder caused by the inflammation of the arachnoid, one of the membranes that surround and protect the nerves of the spinal cord. Severe stinging, a “burning” pain, and neurological problems characterize the condition. It is also progressive and uncureable. Most of the time it hurts just getting out of bed so exercise is pretty much out of the question.

 

This is where I'm torn. She can't take care of herself and the medications are ridiculously expensive. My insurance has already paid out over 300k this years. There's no way she could ever get insurance on her own and let's say she did. Even a 10-20% co-pay would bankrupt most people with a few months. Without the meds she wouldn't survive 6 months.

 

More to come.....

 

 

 

Oh, that's rough. I'm sorry to hear that. It makes it much harder for you to be who you are because you love her and don't want to make her conditions flare up. She probably feels trapped because she can't live without you. Very similar to my wife and my situation. It really sucks. If you feel the need, you can pm me.

[Jamie68]

On 5/7/2021 at 5:50 AM, Willow said:

Good morning 

 

Sitting here drinking morning coffee with my wife and our dog is on the other couch laying on some pillows looking out the window.

 

@Jamie68 the wasps you mention scare me the most.  I recently discovered I I’m highly allergic to wasp venom.  I have to carry an Epipen pen because of them.  Got stung about a year ago.  Went to the doctor immediately.  He said I should have called 911. Gave me shots and watched me for an hour.  Then prescribed the pen.  Everything else I mentioned (in good humor) I can avoid but wasps like living on boats and that’s where I got stung and so did my granddaughter.  I wasn’t even annoying it, just stuck my hand in the wrong place at the wrong time.

 

Willow

Yeah, they really are aggressive. 

[Jamie68]

On 5/7/2021 at 5:54 AM, Bri2020 said:

$8000 out the door. I opted for a "pain block". basically a nerve block infusion that stays in for 4 days so you don't need narcotics. I have a history of pain med addiction from a really bad surgery year when I broke my back. That added $600 and to me worth every penny.  I live in a very wealthy area (top 5 in country) so my guess is it would be cheaper in other areas. I think most places outside of really big cities it's around $6k-$7K

Thanks for the info. I doubt if I will be able to afford it unless I win the lottery.

[Jamie68]

Happy Mothers day to everyone! Hope you all have an awesome day. It's burgers and brats with potato salad for me.

[Jackie C.]

11 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Well It happened at work again. I am getting no recognition. I passed my 5 yr mark the first week in April. Nothing was said. I am just going to do what my job entails. and possibly nothing more. While I know if they harass me about my being transgender could cost the their job. I just wonder what the general feeling is in the store, about me. probably the old weird f-er thinks he is a girl.

 

I don't give 2 shites about it. I am being me. F everyone who doesn't like it.

 

Sorry to be so brash, but it is my feelings.

 

Nah, that's not too brash. I feel the same way. I'm me and I'm perfectly happy with that. Other people don't have to like it. I'm not doing it for them.

 

A little sad that you might have to change locations or jobs to get the recognition you deserve though. On the other hand, being somewhere where nobody knew you before you started transitioning can be very liberating. It's a good feeling where everybody just knows the real you and reacts to that.

 

Hugs!

[Beatriz]

@KathyLauren You look great! And I love the bench.

[Elizabeth Star]

Good morning every one. Happy Mothers Day!

 

We were able to talk a bit last night. She wants me to go boy-mode when we're out together on the weekends. She is OK with me wearing a little light makeup but honestly, I don't know if I can even pass as guy anymore. I'm still going the push the boundaries with it and go with an "obviously lesbian" look. I really need to have to talk about the danger of being misgendered in public. I'm not happy about being in a holding pattern but I do have a few ideas of how I might be able to continue to inch forward. I can say I was not asked or told to back-pedal my transition. A comment was made about me having functional boy parts. I couldn't bring myself to tell her that things are, at this point,  inoperable. It's been years since she would have any reason to know anyways.

 

We had a service com over yesterday to "open" our pool so we ended up in a conversation about swimwear. I'm OK with wearing shorts on the bottom since there so many cute ones out there but tops is a totally different story. She wants me to wear a t-shirt. I tried to explain (and she knows this) that lighter color shirts get translucent when wet. She suggested a darker color. So I went into an explanation of wet t-shirts also stick and conform to your skin and everyone will see the shape of everything.  I don't think she's ever seen a wet t-shirt contest. That's OK, she will find out the hard way. I also have absolutely no desire to have a farmer's tan this year. How ridiculous, finally have our own pool and I'm supposed to swim in a shirt.

 

I have a fun filled day of manual labor ahead of which ought to be interesting since I couldn't sleep and have been wide awake since 1am. Have to rent a truck, move some logs and a lawnmower.

 

Cool, Now I'm getting sleepy.

[Willow]

Happy Mother’s Day 

 

well my mother passed at 91 twenty years ago.  My wife’s mother died of cancer about ten.  Our granddaughter was diagnosed with a brain tumor on Mother’s Day so our daughter always works today rather than sit and dwell on it.  
 

But my wife did say that our kids have made this her best Mother’s Day in many years.  The fact the both remembered her and said nice things to her brought tears to both of us.

 

@Elizabeth Starmy wife is adamantly against seeing me in a female bathing suit.  I don’t know how it’s going to be this year as my boobies have definitely changed shape and size, but I wear a rash guard.  Negative it is tight and will have a distinct shape.  Plus side wet or dry they don’t show through.

 

we had our manual Labor Day yesterday trimming bushes and palm trees. Today is recovery day.  She said she almost gave me bottom surgery ( highly unusual for her to say something like that). I was coming down the ladder and almost ran into the hedge trimmers she was holding.  It’s actually been a pretty good week for us.

 

hugs everyone 

 

Willow

 

 

[Jackie C.]

8 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

I'm still going the push the boundaries with it and go with an "obviously lesbian" look.

 

Oh, that's... basically where I live. My work uniform is: Basic t-shirt with a flannel over-shirt (which is a PITA to find because of my broad shoulders), jeans and shoes I can run in. Fortunately, it was pretty close to what I wore day-to-day anyway. Functional, but dull. I like to dress up on the weekends.

 

Except today. Feeling blah today. The weather is nasty, it's cold and I'm just going to stay in. I've still got my necklace on though.

 

8 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

How ridiculous, finally have our own pool and I'm supposed to swim in a shirt.

 

Well, a shirt isn't TERRIBLE... but that's mostly because I go up like a magnesium flare in the sunlight. I need SPF 100+ or I turn into a lobster. I've got a nice athletic one-piece that I've worn like three times. Once for washing the car. Which was actually kind of funny.

My wife looks at me and asks, "What are you wearing?"

I kind of slow blink at her and reply, "What you're supposed to wear when you wash the car: A swimsuit and a t-shirt."

 

So yeah, it sounds like your spouse is backpedaling on the whole "acceptance" thing. I don't blame you for pushing the envelope. She's in for a REAL surprise when she sees the girls in a wet t-shirt too. Oh well. ?

 

Hugs!