Good morning All. Coffees on.

[HollyNG]

My customers are going to adjust well to the changes with me fulltime as Holly on Monday for the first time.Lot saw I had something on my mind before I came out as transgender for the first time.

[Guest]

8 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Pee on the establishment pushing their BS regiment. I'm not going down without a fight, teeth and nails if needed.

 

 

I love this sign!

[Bri2020]

7 hours ago, stveee said:

 

Am trying to keep friendships and make new ones but it's tough. I think I try too hard when meeting new people and need to just relax. The typical transing midlife trying to make up for lost time feeling thing...

the struggle is real.  try to be your authentic self and people will gravitate to that authenticity. if you are meeting cis women, be open and vulnerable. women connect this way, they were socialized to be supportive and loving, especially when someone is honest with them. Men not so much. We have a lot of social conditioning to undo and unlearn.  

55 minutes ago, HollyNG said:

My customers are going to adjust well to the changes with me fulltime as Holly on Monday for the first time.Lot saw I had something on my mind before I came out as transgender for the first time.

You're going to have a really amazing time when you see how supportive most people will be! Good luck!

[HollyNG]

Going to see me much happier and are open minded.My two tool dealers,Mac and Snap On are going to change my name to Holly next week in my accounts.One customer got me a couple pink John Deere items already,she knows I love anything John Deere

[Davie]

10 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Pee on the establishment pushing their BS regiment. I'm not going down without a fight, teeth and nails if needed.

 

 

Love this sign! 💜

— Davie

[Elizabeth Star]

6 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

THIS sign?

 

Hugs!

I need that sign.

[Jamie68]

On 4/27/2022 at 12:29 AM, KymmieL said:

While never accused of corrupting others. My wife accused my therapist of convincing me that I was trans.

I've heard this from my wife also. Seems to be a common belief with spouses.

[Jamie68]

On 4/27/2022 at 12:16 PM, HollyNG said:

Son has my old male Carhartt work coat for memories I gave him,it has helped him coping.Have most of my male wardrobe gone too.

I still have my old Carhartt jacket just for the occasion for yard work that could ruin my female Columbia jacket. Haven't worn the old one for over a year now though. I also have very little of my male wardrobe left. I don't wear any of it. I really don't know why I kept any of it.

[SaraAW]

Good morning everyone! It has been quite some time since I last popped round. I hope all you folx are doing well this morning. I am living my best life these days. I’ve separated from my ex, moved to another city, found an amazing girlfriend, am fully out and proud. I’m the VP for a local 2SLGBTQI NPO that specializes in helping our communities youth, adults, and their families. This is in addition to my day job, allowing me to give back to the community and continue to try and make a small part of this world a little better for us folx.

 

This morning, as I was sipping on my coffee and doing a little self-reflection, I thought about how far I’ve come since I first found my first community here a few years ago, on this site. I truly can’t thank the amazing folx I met on this site enough for helping me find myself and the courage to show the rest of the world who I am. I am committing myself to becoming active here again to give back to this amazing community. 
 

Have a wonderful day everyone. Lots of love to you all. 💋 

[Mmindy]

Good morning everyone,

The coffee has just finished brewing. I know right, 09:30 and you're just getting coffee?

I woke up at 05:30 bathroom call, laid back down, blinked my eyes, and it's 08:30.

 

@SaraAWit's good to here you're doing well, and giving back to your community. Hugs for that.💕

 

It's going to be a slow TGIF here, I'm waiting on parts to be delivered so I can continue build a training prop.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and safe,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[Mmindy]

7 minutes ago, Hannah Renee said:

My anxiety can start to decrease now.

That's great news Hannah,

Have a wonderful weekend.

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[rachel w]

Hi every one   well it has ben a year on sat that my wife of 36 years passed away had a big melt down 2 weeks ago something happend to me then and i am ok with it.  i doing pretty good now ben going to store dressed it it feels so right i was called mam today it was nice. i nead to get out and meet people. still not come out at work probly wont happen until i retire . thats ok about 2plus years. right now i am ok with that. have a good day rachel

[Mmindy]

43 minutes ago, rachel w said:

right now i am ok with that.

Good afternoon @rachel w

 

Thanks for the update, I'm glad you're copping well and feel like you are okay. It's nice to see the end of the tunnel called work. I'm already collecting two small pensions, and winding down the small business I own. No more work travel after November 12, 2022. Fully retired March 1, 2023.

 

Best wishes, stay positive, and motivated,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[Mmindy]

1 hour ago, Hannah Renee said:

Gotta love the change in outlook.

🦋 Fly Hannah Fly 🦋

[HollyNG]

Been a good day,my employees and customers seeing me living and dressing for the last time today.The change when I come as Holly for the first time on Monday,nothing is not going to change with us also the same person with me much happier.

[Bri2020]

11 hours ago, SaraAW said:

 

 

This morning, as I was sipping on my coffee and doing a little self-reflection, I thought about how far I’ve come since I first found my first community here a few years ago, on this site. I truly can’t thank the amazing folx I met on this site enough for helping me find myself and the courage to show the rest of the world who I am. I am committing myself to becoming active here again to give back to this amazing community. 
 

Have a wonderful day everyone. Lots of love to you all. 💋 

Welcome home!

 

[Willow]

Hi everyone 

 

yesterday was a long day driving.  Today was kind of a cold day family wise.  At least we had a nice talk with our ex son-in-law.  He has a rare cancer, and will likely die within the year.  Also spent time talking to his mom and dad.  This afternoon we got to spend some time with our oldest granddaughter.  We are physically pretty close to our daughter but have not seen her.  I did talk to her briefly this morning but if was a very tense call.  My wife texted her wanting to know if we could come to see her and Jamie (our other granddaughter). No response.

 

What a way to spend our anniversary.  All I ever wanted was a close family and it’s anything but that. Very sad.

 

We are meeting everyone one for dinner Sunday evening.  I’m worried how that might go.

 

Willow

[HollyNG]

Had my farewell gathering as male and went great.It was emotional for my mom seeing her son for the last time.Knows that she will be having a much happier daughter,Holly in her life starting tommorrow.

[Bri2020]

10 hours ago, Hannah Renee said:

Thanks. I am so grateful for all the support I get here. Love my new family ❤️

 

I did get a chance to talk with my daughter. She gave me a great opening last Friday by asking for a picture of Liz and me. She asked good questions about not only what I've done so far, as well as future hopes and plans. My wife and my older son don't want to know, basically, whereas my daughter said that she would like to know ahead of time if I'm about to take another step. Gotta love her for that.

 

I did return home with my expensively refurbished vehicle so I could change into real clothes. A slight change in plans had me turning right around to go past the house to pick up my younger daughter - the one who lives with me. Then we picked up her girlfriend on the way home. She was given the opportunity for a sleepover. Then my son called to ask me to get gas for the lawnmower (his job now, not mine👍). Got the gas, picked up the girlfriend, and my son asked if I could stay at the house and help pick up the yard before the mowing. Yeah, he would have loved seeing me the way I was dressed - NOT. Then I realized it was just about time for my wife to get home. No thanks, all around. Not interested.😮

It's sounds so complicated having to navigate different levels of acceptance but I am happy your one daughter appears to be working on things. 

 

8 hours ago, HollyNG said:

Had my farewell gathering as male and went great.It was emotional for my mom seeing her son for the last time.Knows that she will be having a much happier daughter,Holly in her life starting tommorrow.

This is kinda brilliant.  I never had a "farewell" to the old me.  I think that is a great idea for people who have family friends who are encouraging and accepting of you.  I had a lot of support so just woke up one day and said, we're doing this and never looked backed.  What I realized a year later was those close to me, who were happy I was pursuing my truth, never had a chance to grieve or say goodbye to the old me.  I think a farewell party or a kind of memorial service to honor the past version would be so helpful to those in our lives.  Too often we get get caught about our plans for the future but forget the costs/implications to those around us.

[KymmieL]

Why do I even bother anymore?

 

I guess I am to nice. Still haven't had my evaluation yet.  As of tomorrow it will be exactly 6yrs 1 mo. Since I started here. Over a month past due on my evaluation. OH well. -crap-  happens. Monday, I get to drive to Scottsbluff to help with inventory.  I've  done it before. At least it's days. Then getting the shaft. Close Tue, Wednesday. 

Well, BOHICA. I guess.  I am just tired of all the BS I get.

Not in my right mind right now, I'm in a F it all mood. I don't care about anything  anymore but my family.  Not even myself. I'll see you all later. 

Kymmie 

[stveee]

Well social transition I seem to be getting a bit of help from the Universe as we accidently went to a support group advertised as LGBTQ friendly, but was actually an all-women's meeting welcoming femme-identifying/trans/nb, so my bi guy BFF had to leave, but I stayed as just one of the girls. So apart from the restroom thing, I felt like I had busted another bubble in being fully out and affirmed. So that is going to be a weekly highlight. 

Been hit on by a lovely black trans girl from group, because most of us all traded contacts. So she texts me the very next morning and by my response didn't take long for her to realize I have been out of circulation a loong time. So I kinda vibed to hit the brakes a little bit since it freaked me out. Because just last week she was with her boyfriend, who she said is no more. And she's 20 years younger too, so maybe there's a gap there. Maybe she didn't realize I am almost 50 although I don't look it.

T4T may be a topic I need to explore, or LGBTQ intimacy in general because I feel like I need to explore, but safely. Probably stuff to discuss with my counselor, but generally I feel I have a good sense for boundaries. But also there are years of conditioning and being repressed and living in fear that still linger.

Otherwise, hormonally, my E levels are excellent, although so is my T, and I finally gave my legs and arms a proper shave since the weather is warmer. 

[Mmindy]

Good morning everyone,

 

The grandsons (6 & 10) are coming to spend the day with us, while their parents work to prepare their home for sale. At the end of the school year they will be moving North of Chicago, IL. While we’re really proud of our son-in-law and his upward mobility with the company he works for. We’re heartbroken that our grandchildren will be so far away, after only being less than a mile from us. We were able to attend all of their activities. 
 

Hugs,

 

Mindy🐛🏳️‍⚧️🦋

[Bri2020]

19 minutes ago, stveee said:

 

T4T may be a topic I need to explore, or LGBTQ intimacy in general because I feel like I need to explore, but safely. Probably stuff to discuss with my counselor, but generally I feel I have a good sense for boundaries. But also there are years of conditioning and being repressed and living in fear that still linger

I feel you. I had a pan sexual guy friend approach me the other day about introducing me to someone. He is trans male but only intends to identify that way and present socially so all the parts will remain female and no HRT. He is attracted to girls so there’s always the question of if he has the same issues I do. My friend knows I’m not into guys and male parts and hair patterns  trigger me.  It raised an interesting question. I grew up so homo/trans phobic that I have a lot of conditioning to overcome. I told him I would be happy to meet him if for nothing else than to build community.  In principle I have no issues with being in a relationship with someone who identifies male and uses male name and pronouns I just don’t like male toxicity or parts. 

[stveee]

6 minutes ago, Bri2020 said:

I feel you. I had a pan sexual guy friend approach me the other day about introducing me to someone. He is trans male but only intends to identify that way and present socially so all the parts will remain female and no HRT. He is attracted to girls so there’s always the question of if he has the same issues I do. My friend knows I’m not into guys and male parts and hair patterns  trigger me.  It raised an interesting question. I grew up so homo/trans phobic that I have a lot of conditioning to overcome. I told him I would be happy to meet him if for nothing else than to build community.  In principle I have no issues with being in a relationship with someone who identifies male and uses male name and pronouns I just don’t like male toxicity or parts. 

Yeah it's triggering for me too...at least where I am now. For some girls, I guess that changes. It's hard to tell what is conditioning sometimes.

I feel I am fairly strictly binary. I was exposed to the old school, questioned it, then when NB became a "thing", found I was binary all along. Maybe it comes down to identity versus expression. For me, they "have to" run concurrent. And I relate to the pain of being brought up in an environment that was hostile, and I suppose living with identity and expression at odds for so long is part of the equation.

I still have to work out getting over non-op trans women who kept their equipment, maybe because that's what I am but want the GCS. I just sort of disassociate and had body dysphoria early on.

But that's a trigger and like, if I get involved with another pre- or no-op trans girl that might be a learning curve. Bottom line, sex is no fun without really loving the person inside, and this young chick I met was probably on the bounce.

[SheenaT]

I am just popping in to give an update. I had my prostatectomy April 4th.  All pathology reports look good. It appears from 8 lymph nodes taken and margins all clear that they got all the cancer. I am recovering slowly but pretty well. Ended up in emergency with a raging UTI from 2 weeks with a catheter.  Getting better every day.