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Jani
23 hours ago, Cyndee said:

"but you know, the darkest hour is always, always  just before the dawn...."

Sing it Sister!  

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Charlize

I love it!  So many songs that burned their way into my mind as this hippie sniffed the tear gas in anti war demonstrations.  FM radio was just finding an audience as most were listening to AM.  Somehow music brings those days back like nothing else.  "The times are still a'changing".  May dawn come soon.

 

Hugs,

 

Charlize

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Josie Beth

 

somewhat enigmatic but really striking lyrics. It speaks about futility of trying to keep things the same. 

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Josie Beth

Wait a while

We’ll figure out our lives 

Hold your breath

The wolves are in disguise 

Don’t need your dirty hands 

Don’t need to take a chance 

Go stand in behind the fence 

Can you feel that bleeding neck 

Can you feel that now 

 

Close the door 

Take a walk around 

Hold your breath 

In these rivers you might drown 

All alone you live inside 

It’s alone you came and went 

In the shadows the bounty rides

A love that makes no sense 

It makes no sense...

 

You could beat a cat in the rain 

Losing all that you gain

Working hard but you know 

All things will change 

 

The world it’ll spin and stand trial 

While they spit and draw blood 

from your smile 

We’ll all make it back to the stars 

But it’s ours for a little while 

 

Oo oo ooo ooo ooooo

Oo oo ooo ooo ooooo

 

Brace your heart 

In this rich and colored plinth 

Hold your breath 

It’s a key and a killer in your hands

All I want is bells and whistles 

All I want is fancy dreams 

And you live and learn 

And soon discern

Nothing’s ever what it seems 

Never what it seems 

 

Beat a cat in the rain 

Losing all that you gain

Working hard but you know 

All things will change 

 

The world it’ll spin and stand trial 

While they spit and draw blood 

from your smile 

We’ll all make it back to the stars 

But it’s ours for a little while 

 

Oo oo ooo ooo ooooo

Oo oo ooo ooo ooooo

 

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MaryEllen

ABBA

 

 

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MaryMary

very beautifull song

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Debra Michelle

It reminds me of what happened before I started my  transition in 1999.Ex girlfriend decided to tell me the bad news.Pregnant telling I wasn't the dad and an ex boyfriend of hers was the dad.I was hurt bad and she did it to me.Lied to and cheated on me.I walked off telling her it was over,asked me to take her back and told her no.

 

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Jani

Geddy Lee - My Favorite Headache

 

A solo effort by Rush's Bass player and vocalist.   A nice counterpoint to Rush.

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Maid In Bedlam

Its no secret im a big VNV Nation fan.

 

This song is no exception.. Beloved

 

Lyrics: Are about losing someone very close to you.

 

The beat may be a little fast for some . It always makes me think of those people who i have known and are no longer on this astral plain.  I do think of the good times and try to leave the bad to history.

 

 

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