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Yup-vinyl. You can spill stuff on it without a problem (good for Laura's addicts who bring refreshments to the computer so they can keep posting), and roll it up to take it with you if you need it for a portable devise.

Looks great-and the spillproof thing is as good as they said. That's right I already spilled supper on it-no problem.

But I have to practice for awhile before I type anything I actually want read. It's just so different with those soft keys.

And bet of all-it was cheap :D

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Hi JJ,

We had one at a computer for several years. The touch stayed about the same from beginning to end. The nurses who used it daily really liked it. For me, it was challenging just because I'd use it only occasionally. Oh, it lasted until the computer died - about 5 years of hard labor.

I'm guessing that you'll grow to love it.

Love, Kat

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I once played a roll up piano but I have never used a roll up keyboard - I tried it with my other computer - it was pretty hard to make it roll up and there was a lot of cracking noises and the keys fell off, I haven't bothered to unroll it!

Love ya,

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Ah, well fun night for me.

My left side has been hurtin for bout a month now. At first we all thought it was my gall bladder, went to ER, and they said stomach flu. It has still been bothering me, and hurts like heck after I eat anything too heavy. Crackers, toast, soup, are the only things that wont aggravate it. It feels like the type of pain you get after running a while. Just constantly.

So i told my mom about it tonight. At first (like usual) she acted like it was nothing. Like it would heal overnight. as we were texting, and i was telling her how bad it was hurting me, her response made her sound like she didnt care at all. i told her that was easy for her to say because she wasnt the one in pain. she sent me a message back joking around asking if i needed a beatin, i told her no but it would be nice to know she cared, or is at least a bit worried. that lead to a conversation of how it seemed no one cared that i have been in pain a whole month, and ended up with her apologizing to me for everything thats happened in the last 4 almost 5 years. She told me she cares more than she shows and shes sorry, she also said she wishes there was something she could do to change how the last few years have gone. That she hasnt been the best mom and she couldnt say sorry enough.

Me and my mom used to be really close. Once her and my dad separated, she started seeing the man who is now her husband. He doesnt like me, and i dont like him, and my mom let him come between mine and her's relationship. And I think now that I am about to turn 18, she is just now realizing that.

During our conversation I told her a lot of stuff i have been keeping back. That i feel i cant rely on her anymore, and that its like I dont matter to her. I told her that she let her husband come between us after she promised me she wouldnt let no one ever do that. I also told her how every time i visit her, they have all kinds of new things, and my step bro has all kinds of new junk he doesnt even need, but i am lucky if they just buy me clothes every 3 years. I know she is feeling bad, and I know she meant what she said, because normally my mom wouldnt tell me this kinda stuff. I told her she doesnt have to apologize, all i want of her is to step up and be a mom. Show me that she does care, even if it is only for 5 months til my 18th b-day.

It was a big release tonight, and i feel relieved now that my mom knows how i really feel about a lot of things. I told her she didnt have to say sorry, but honestly, it has been an apology I have been waiting for, for 4 years.

She is taking me to the ER tomorrow morning to get me admitted in so they can find out whats going on with me.

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Thank you for letting us know, Colton. Hope you can get some answers at the ER so you can get better soon. We will be pulling for you....

Glad you had a heart to heart with your mom. Hope things can get back between you and her like they were years ago.

Our thoughts are with you! You are one awesome Cowboy!

Opal

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Colton,

That conversation with your Mom was so good. Will make a difference in both your lives-and the fact that you turn 18 soon doesn't change anything-you'll still always be her child.

One other tiny little thought about the things you said. You have posted that you hoped your Mom and Dad would get back together and that hope will have affected your relationship w/ your step-dad. It will have shown in a hundred ways-which caused you to resent and dislike each other. I'm aware that there are probably other issues but this is one. Now that you are a mature young man perhaps you can look at that in a different way. I'm not saying you'll have the same experience but once I saw my step-father as a person and not the destroyer of my dreams, not the replacement for the father I wanted back I discovered he was an amazing man. We became close till the day he died. I still miss him after 14 years. But this is really just meant as an observation -a side note.

The main thing is your breakthrough with your mom. And getting something done about that pain. I'll be keeping you in my thought s and prayers that they find the cause and get you back to normal soon!

Love,

JohnJ

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Colton,

First, the breakthrough with your mom is wonderful. Maybe the two of you can do some healing now and start to rebuild that close relationship. It sounds like you made her stop and think about her actions for the past few years.

Chronic pain nothing to mess with and flu is not going to last a month. Goddess, I hate ERs. I used to work as a paramedic many moons ago and have seen ER doctors murder patients through their lack of care and just wanting to get rid of them. With today's medicine you have to demand that they do something for you or have an advocate that will watch out for you.

Please let us know how things turn out.

Mia

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Talk about feeling dumb! I go skin diving almost every night. I love exploring the things on the bottom of the lake and watching the fish watch me. I can't scuba because I have asthma so use a mask and fins, and a snorkel to make it easier to breathe when I surface.

Tonight the waves were high from a stiff wind and I was having to fight to breathe when I came up because the waves kept breaking over me. They would also carry me along as I stayed on the surface to catch my breath. I underestimated how much and drifted into shallow water without being aware how far in I was. I dove down as I always do and drilled my head right down into the soft sand! There I was, head in the sand, fins sticking up out of the water. It must have been quite a sight!

No harm done except the sand may never all come out of my hair. There are lots of rocks down there and it could have been bad but the Creator does sometimes watch out for fools!

Got to go get sand out of my ear!

JohnJ

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OMG, JJ.......

I'm glad that you were alright and that God gave you some soft sand....

Maybe from now on you should dive with a pillow tied around your head....

LOVE

Donna Jean

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Lol i copied this from my facebook, but i wanted to let everyone know what happened last night at the E.R.

So here's my update.

went to E.R. last night. they did a CT Scan and found where a cyst on my ovaries had ruptured. have fluid in my abdomen and pelvis. also said my lymph nodes are swollen. gave me meds for pain, and are waiting for test results from my urinalysis. They found bacteria, and want to make sure its nothing serious. also on antibiotics for infection.

note: i havent started antibiotics yet, because we are waiting for results on the tests ran on the bacteria, but when he has it narrowed down, i will start a dose. right now im taking pain meds, and stuff for nausea.

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JEBUS PETE, COLTON!

I had no idea anything was wrong with you, Honey!

I don't want anything to happen to you...that would make me very sad...

I love you too much for that....,

HUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

Donna jean

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JEBUS PETE, COLTON!

I had no idea anything was wrong with you, Honey!

I don't want anything to happen to you...that would make me very sad...

I love you too much for that....,

HUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

Donna jean

Well we had to wait to even do anything cause my mom wouldnt get with the program. lol. we went on the 7th, a week after it had been hurtin, and they took blood, urine, and said it was stomach flu dry.gif. Last night they actually tried to find the problem. thankfully now we have some answers as to what it is.

I'll be ok smile.gif

HUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGG

Love ya

Cowboy

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Colton, I'm so glad that they found out what was really wrong with you.

I hope all goes well with your treatment and you are back in the saddle real soon.

HUGS

Carolyn Marie

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Well Colton, I am glad that you were finally able to get to the ER. We all care about you, and want to see you on the mend. So you do what it takes to get better, and before long you will be back to clanking those anchors, three at a time.

Big Hugs, (as long as it does not hurt)

Opal

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Well Colton, I am glad that you were finally able to get to the ER. We all care about you, and want to see you on the mend. So you do what it takes to get better, and before long you will be back to clanking those anchors, three at a time.

Big Hugs, (as long as it does not hurt)

Opal

ROFL. I still cant get over that. (lol thanks Dee Jay).

and hugs are fine. dont hurt one bit. actually helps the healin process. wink.gif

HUGGG

...lol... anchor clanker..... lol.

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Hi Colton,

I can't top anchor clanker-so I'll just say that I'm glad they finally found the problem and hope you'll soon be on the mend.

You sure add something special around here!

Hugs,

JohnJ

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Colton,

You do everything just the way the doctor tells you to, some men think that taking medicine is a sign of weakness - it is not it is a sign of caring about themselves and the effect that they have on others.

We need you here, I need you here!

Get better, big guy.

HUGE HUGG

LOVE

Sally

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Hi Colton,

I am so glad you finally got some help. Looks like you will be out of the saddle for awhile while you heal up. Take those boots off and relax and heal for a bit. :lol:

Mia

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Went to my job interview today. Was a job fair type thing and had to wait 2 hours just to be asked 3 questions. sheesh. lol

i think i did alright, but my head and side was killin me by the time i got my turn, so it was hard to concentrate.

then i had to help run errands in town, while wearin dress pants and dress shoes. not the proper attire for a cowboy, and for that matter one in 90 degree heat. lol.

But it was a good day, im home now restin. I will find out by the end of the week if i got the job or not.

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But it was a good day, im home now restin. I will find out by the end of the week if i got the job or not.

Well, good luck, Hon......I have my fingers (and eyes :wacko: ) crossed for you...

Now, get outa those dress pants and get into some camo!

Huggs

Donna Jean

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Good luck on the outcome of on the job interview-it's hard to do one when you're feeling good. I admire you for hanging in there and getting it done when you feel under the weather.

Now it's time for some R & R. Take good care of yourself till you get those inides all fixed up

Manly hug

JohnJ

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Well, after my therapy session, I went into a John Deere parts place and bought a wooden stick part thingy ( Pitman ) for the mower, then another place for a spark plug for the weed trimmer. John Deer has some really nice light pink tops with their logo on it. May have to see if they are available on-line.

Also got my skirt and top today, but not in time to wear to Therapy. :mad:

Huggs,

Opal

P.S. Hope the news is good on your job interview, and the meds are working for you Colton. :)

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John Deer has some really nice light pink tops with their logo on it. May have to see if they are available on-line.

What the heck?

Their colors are green and yellow?

Dee Jay

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