A Place To Say Something

[Guest Kate]

Fiona,

Have you tried seeing a chiropractor? A very close friend of mine suffered from migraines and chronic neck pain for years and saw around a dozen specialists who couldn't give him any answers. He eventually went to a chiropractor who took some x-rays which revealed a large offset in one of his cervical vertebrae which all the doctors had dismissed as nothing. After a few months of treatments his migraines have all but gone away along with his chronic neck pain. If the MDs can't seem to figure out what's going on with your neck/back it might be worth a shot. As a bonus a lot of insurance policies are covering chiropractic care now as well.

Kate

[Cyndee]

An absolutely Beautiful day out here, really looking forward to going hiking with my dear sister Meg and her soul mate.

I wake up this morning realizing the less I think about gender and my body, the better off I am. I have many days where I don't think about any of this, then poof something triggers that ugly feeling, and we call it dysphoria. I wish I could control all the triggers, it's so sinister and sneaks up on you. I can't stand it, but the best thing is to NOT let it's terrible vortex get started in the first place, avoidance is something do I work on. I am just about fully recovered from the last bout, it happened just before my last E shot, when my levels were their lowest. I really do love myself, and their has to be an end to the pre-op dyshporic blues...

UGG

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[Guest Syd_UK]

i am not getting a huge amount done today it has to be said.

(maybe get off the internet m8... )

.....

(the internet... time sucking vortex of doom and wonderful life enchancing device of entertainment and compansionship)..

sometimes i think to myself *insert blank space here*

the last time i had relations with a man i had to stop him for a moment to ask "who did your plastering ?"

this would have been something of a passion killer in most situations i feel. but it didnt bother him in the slightest.

in any case i hate being treated like a woman and the last time he called me i told him to take a hike. LOL. <3

luckily the last time i saw him he said somethng incredibly offensive so i didnt feel bad in the slightest.

[Guest]

i am not getting a huge amount done today it has to be said.

(maybe get off the internet m8... )

.....

(the internet... time sucking vortex of doom and wonderful life enchancing device of entertainment and compansionship)..

sometimes i think to myself *insert blank space here*

the last time i had relations with a man i had to stop him for a moment to ask "who did your plastering ?"

this would have been something of a passion killer in most situations i feel. but it didnt bother him in the slightest.

in any case i hate being treated like a woman and the last time he called me i told him to take a hike. LOL. <3

luckily the last time i saw him he said somethng incredibly offensive so i didnt feel bad in the slightest.

Syd, you have no shortage of funny! I am rolling on the floor! Tears clear down to my jiggling jelly belly! Hug. JodyAnn

[Guest Syd_UK]

thanks

i like your posts too, i was reading one of them yesterday but my memory is terrible so i cant remember what section it is in but you were saying something about you werent a postage stamp to be licked, sticked and... something.. LOL i thought that was brilliant

[Guest]

I have to credit the phrase to my ex wife. What I can claim is a new intimate knowledge of how she felt and how well it applies to me today. It formed one of my female boundries.

When I let my gaurd down it changes to an old Motown song Mr Postman which I rewrote to the music. Basically asking the Postman to lick me, stick me and send me on my way. If it's good I come back around another day. Ending about being the favorite stamp in the collection. Giggle. I vacillate between good thoughts and bad, depending on the heat in my little teakettle. Blushing smile.

Her other famous line I loved; "I'm not easy, but could be obtainable." Most of my other pretzel logic I can claim as originally my own.

Hug. JodyAnn

[Guest Syd_UK]

thats awesome i like the way you think, you seem to have a great sense of humour.

[Cyndee]

It's like dude

I just don't exist for your benefit and, don't wanna know...

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[Cyndee]

I love my new sewing machine, fixed my favorite 3 layer skirt last night lickety split...

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[Cyndee]

Diary of a passing encounter.

Just when you don't try to pass, you do, or at least to some degree, I'll just call it passing encounters....

Out for a walk on my electrolysis "grow out day" yesterday, no make up, I felt kinda grubby, just wearing jeans, light jacket that kinda hides the girls, and a blue sparkle cap that keeps my hair back.

I see three 20 something guys doing some landscaping work in a yard across the street, I don't really look their way and kind of keep any body language to a minimum, although I sense their eyes locking onto me, and then I hear it "excuse me, Ma'am", I think to myself is this me they want ? assessing the situation, I guess so no else around, before I can even react, a second attempt this time a little louder "excuse me Ma'am" I turn and smile to him this time, and he asks "do you have the time ?" a simple request, ok, In a quiet correctly pitched voice "no, I don't" smiling I tell him guesturing like I have no watch. He wishes me a good day and the other guy simply waves at me, innocent enough. No "weirdness" detected, file this encounter under "you passed at 30 feet" on your grubbiest day

Just real life

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[Charlize]

Certainly an encounter of the good kind! I've forgotten to shave and was amazed when idealized with a half full cart of groceries that nobody had given me a second glance. Perhaps i could be a bearded lady and still be a lady? I always was but now i'm giving a few more clues.

Those clues help all of us.

Your bravery going out regardless of how you look was certainly rewarded.

Hugs,

Charlize

[JJ]

Ah how I love my beautiful and brave friends here.

Johnny

[Guest Lara-Saphire]

Oh how I long for to venture out as me......... I'm not ready now ..... but some day!!!!!!!

Lara

PS; My wife keeps giving me a nudge closer out the door

[Guest molly'ssofem]

Still confused, perplexed,scared, and alone.I really wish I knew what to do about anything!!.

[Guest TGTrish]

Molly,

Stay in touch with others, specifically those who understand and are sympathetic. Here at Laura's, find local support groups, friends you can trust.

Trish

[Guest]

As I've posted before, I underdress with forms and carried a backpack type bag for my stuff. My wife got me this very nice 'Coach male backpack type bag' and tol me that "every girl deserves a Coach"

[Guest]

Sitting at the doctor's office yesterday to pacify the wait, I read this months issue of Sport Diver.

They have an article on rash guards. I saw a pink and white one that I loved. Fifteen pounds more off my middle and I might look great in it too. That may be my reward prize to myself. I also thought of the guys here and the pictures also showed some that may appeal to anyone.

There was also a little snip-it article on a mermaid school in Montreal. Awww... I want to go there! As a little girl I always wanted to be one. All the Disney movies, then the movie Splash turned me fish scales with envy. I have no idea what it costs but it looks like great fun. Aqua Mermaid Academy I think, at the same name website. I want to be a purple one... Hug. JodyAnn

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[Guest TGTrish]

Oh Megan, sounds like you had a wonderful time. I have many memories from childhood trips in similar kinds of places. In fact, when I need a mental "safe place" to go to its from a childhood hike from Glacier Point down to the valley. (Yosemite National Park) Hang on to your wonder, peaceful memories!

Trish

[Charlize]

i am envious! Sounds like such a lovely time.

Hugs,

Charlize

[Cyndee]

Today is my first mammogram, and It's time after 2 years 8 months of full strength estrogen treatment, doctor's orders. At my age the changes have been slow and steady, the girls look quite perky and fantastically beautiful these days, my hope they are as healthy on the inside as they are on the outside. This is but one step to ensure they are.

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[Guest]

Good for you! Not to worry the boob fairy loves you.

[Cyndee]

Good for you! Not to worry the boob fairy loves you.

It was a "right of passage" experience, the place I went was very professional and friendly. Beautiful quilts hung on the wall in the imaging room you can look at, while they contort your body parts to fit in the machine. Fancy bras encased on the wall of the changing room. The gal that did the imaging for me was soooo nice and pretty too. The only knod to "trans" was when she asked me if I was taking hormones, to which of course I answered affirmatively. I was treated just like the other ladies there, no difference that I could tell and that's the way it should be....

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[Guest]

Yes indeed! I love being treated kindly as just another sister in life. I'm glad it went so well.

[Guest]

The wife and I did some shopping at Torrid, our favorite clothing store. We both got some goodies

[Cyndee]

Fremont district gig last week with the jam band, I realized I'd arrived at a friendly place when the doorman putting on my wrist band was FTM. I run into 8 or so 30 somethings on the street (suburban types) after the gig carrying my axe and amp head, I start to go around them, and the guys in the pack just can't get their eyes off me, it's like dudes you must be tourists ? Back to my truck around the corner and I spot the crisp envelope on my windshield with a $ 53 parking ticket waiting inside, they are so aggressive down there, yeah the sign said 2 hour limit before 8 pm (what the heck, I get there at 6 ?), any door $$ I made from this show, just went out the window, that's life, great fun and sweat under the lights...