Good morning All. Coffees on.

[Jamie68]

21 hours ago, Jandi said:

Had my coffee on the front porch as usual in warm weather.  I throw sunflower seeds out for the birds, of course the squirrels like them as well.

I have a mouse in the house.  Probably more than one.  Little thing ran across the kitchen right in front of me - didn't have the decency to wait till after dark.  My kitty is too slack.  She's a deadly hunter out in the wide world, but when she comes in, she just sleeps.  Guess it's up to me to catch 'em.

And then, I was fixing to run over to the Food Lion, but my car battery was dead.  Fortunately I had a charger that was accessible and not up at my ex's place in the country.   I hope that's all it needs.  Batteries are too high these days.

So the day is off to an interesting start.

Walmart sells live traps with a window in the top that's awesome if you don't want to kill them. cut a piece of cardboard the size of the open area in trap, put color side up with some peanut butter on it and a jar lid with water in there. It works wonders. Of course it's no fun taking them out in bad weather far enough away from the house to set them free.

[Jamie68]

On 5/19/2021 at 4:05 PM, Confused1 said:

 

Wow Mindy! We started out much the same and ended up in a rig similar to yours. Later we downsized back to a motorcycle. Hoping to do that again once I am healed. Just not sure how much my loss of strength will affect handling the motorcycle with the wife aboard.

 

 

Kymmie, I don't know how to compare, but I didn't start noticing much until about a month after I got my anti-androgen shot to shut down the hormones. Even then, the changes were subtle for awhile except for the change in my head. Nobody noticed that other than how easy it was to make me cry.

 

@Linda Marie I don't comment much, but I do enjoy your music.

 

Hugs,

Mike

 

I've been on HRT for 3 months now. I'm thinking the doctor started me on a low dose because the only difference I feel is tender breasts all the time. It's supposed to mean they're growing. I nope that's correct. I'm on xx mg estradiol an xx mg spironolactone. I just had my first blood test since starting on HRT. waiting on the results for hormones. The other results showed almost no change. Should get the rest today.

Edited May 28, 2021 by Jani
Dosages not allowed

[Ivy]

5 hours ago, Jamie68 said:

Walmart sells live traps with a window in the top that's awesome if you don't want to kill them.

Could be worth a try.   Killing them doesn't bother me a whole lot since they have chewed up some of my favorite things in the past.  But hey, a mouse is gonna be a mouse.  (I can always feed them to the cat - although that does seem a bit cold)

[Confused1]

5 hours ago, Jamie68 said:

I've been on HRT for 3 months now. I'm thinking the doctor started me on a low dose because the only difference I feel is tender breasts all the time. It's supposed to mean they're growing. I nope that's correct. I'm on estradiol an spironolactone. I just had my first blood test since starting on HRT. waiting on the results for hormones. The other results showed almost no change. Should get the rest today.

 

Hi Jamie,

I had a Lupron shot early March of last year. The noise in my head went away about a month later and within 2 months I noticed a lot of changes. I have only had lab work once showing my hormone levels, but both were super low. I was informed by some PCa forums that my E was too low for breast growth, but I noticed tenderness at Thanksgiving last year. That is when I realized they had already started to grow. The growth is happening at a very slow pace, but I am sure it will pick up in a few months when I am no longer constrained from having estrogen.

 

Hugs,

Mike

[KymmieL]

Had a great appointment with my GYN. She is fantastic. She has upped my Estrodal to the next dosage, and I will be starting up Spiro again to hopefully bring down my T. She is also getting me in for a bone density scan. With taking my other blockers for over 6 months. She want to make sure everything is OK. She is also going to put in for a breast exam. The Dr. says that might as well start.

 

Chicken out on the dress, but wore womans shorts, t-shirt, and tennys. Of course bran and panties are a given. I wanted to look more casual. My purse with some protection, a girl can't be too safe. (OK, get your minds out of the gutter) placing it in my center console while at the VA. I love WY. You can concealed carry without a permit.

 

Hugs,

 

Kymmie

[Jani]

6 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Chicken out on the dress

You don't always need to wear dresses and such.  I never do unless its something special.  Dress to blend in and be a part of the universe!  I'm sure you looked great.

 

Jani

[KymmieL]

Jani, that is what I was aiming for. Just like any other woman on the street.

 

Kymmie

[Willow]

Hi everyone 

 

I haven’t had much to say the last couple of days.  Tomorrow morning I see a voice therapist.  Then tomorrow afternoon I see my ENT.  I am supposed to get a Botox shot in my throat to stop the muscle spasms.  I can be talking fine the all of a sudden I get a spasm and can’t even croak something out. I have worked out a signal with my wife when it happens.  
 

I have the battery power and control panel all hooked up.  Fuel is hooked up.  The biggest part I need to add is the exhaust system once that’s installed I can try turning over the engine.  I don’t really want to start it just yet.  Check everything before actually running 5he engine.

 

willow

[Jamie68]

12 hours ago, Confused1 said:

 

Hi Jamie,

I had a Lupron shot early March of last year. The noise in my head went away about a month later and within 2 months I noticed a lot of changes. I have only had lab work once showing my hormone levels, but both were super low. I was informed by some PCa forums that my E was too low for breast growth, but I noticed tenderness at Thanksgiving last year. That is when I realized they had already started to grow. The growth is happening at a very slow pace, but I am sure it will pick up in a few months when I am no longer constrained from having estrogen.

 

Hugs,

Mike

That's great. I've read it takes 2 years to grow breasts. I hope it doesn't take that long. I don't want stretch marks either. I lotion up every day so that doesn't happen. 

[Jackie C.]

7 hours ago, Jamie68 said:

That's great. I've read it takes 2 years to grow breasts. I hope it doesn't take that long. I don't want stretch marks either. I lotion up every day so that doesn't happen. 

 

It can take longer than that for us older gals. Patience.

 

Hugs!

[Elizabeth Star]

Good morning everyone,

 

I'm happy to say things have really calmed down here at home. For now.  As long as I'm getting stuff done around the house on the weekends and a little during the week I don't anything hear anything about my presentation. We've even gone out shopping together. Granted it was just a quick grocery run but still I didn't have to change my clothes first. I was in a, it wasn't this tight 3 months ago, cami and jeans. As we walked around the store, I could occasional feel eyes on us but why were they looking? Was I getting clocked? Did they think we're lesbians vs. friends? Don't know, don't really care. I didn't hear any snickering or comments. So I'm assuming the lesbian thing. Obviously I'm fine with that.

 

Met with my therapist last night. It turns out I've been suffering from a lot of anxiety over the years. I've struggled with the idea of using that term since it seems like a catch-all word these days. They also made the mistake of being curious about my sexuality (past and present). Lots of self-induced shame there but it's out on the table so we'll see what I find out about myself.

 

I found the limits of what I can wear at work. Yesterday's outfit really pushed the boundaries but it was mostly the pants. Apparently the distressed look isn't considered professional. I wasn't reprimanded or told to change, just not to wear then again. And I was worried about the crochet mesh top. At least I wore a tank underneath it.

 

It's supposed to be in the 80s today and I have no idea what to wear. I have very little in the way of summer clothes. Oh wow, look at the time. Looks like I have to figure it out.

[Maddee]

Good morning!

 

I've been kind of dressing in line with what the other women wear at work.  With some consideration not to accentuate features that masculinize me.

 

At some point Id like to try working somewhere where you're supposed to dress "professional"

 

IMO you're an artist @Elizabeth Star

[Jamie68]

3 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

 

It can take longer than that for us older gals. Patience.

 

Hugs!

Patience is difficult after waiting so long already just to be who I am. I can't even wear girl clothes outside of the bedroom yet. My wife says she supports me, but it sure doesn't feel like it most of the time. My therapist says to go slow with her. It feels like I'm going at a snails pace.

[Jamie68]

1 hour ago, Elizabeth Star said:

Good morning everyone,

 

I'm happy to say things have really calmed down here at home. For now.  As long as I'm getting stuff done around the house on the weekends and a little during the week I don't anything hear anything about my presentation. We've even gone out shopping together. Granted it was just a quick grocery run but still I didn't have to change my clothes first. I was in a, it wasn't this tight 3 months ago, cami and jeans. As we walked around the store, I could occasional feel eyes on us but why were they looking? Was I getting clocked? Did they think we're lesbians vs. friends? Don't know, don't really care. I didn't hear any snickering or comments. So I'm assuming the lesbian thing. Obviously I'm fine with that.

 

Met with my therapist last night. It turns out I've been suffering from a lot of anxiety over the years. I've struggled with the idea of using that term since it seems like a catch-all word these days. They also made the mistake of being curious about my sexuality (past and present). Lots of self-induced shame there but it's out on the table so we'll see what I find out about myself.

 

I found the limits of what I can wear at work. Yesterday's outfit really pushed the boundaries but it was mostly the pants. Apparently the distressed look isn't considered professional. I wasn't reprimanded or told to change, just not to wear then again. And I was worried about the crochet mesh top. At least I wore a tank underneath it.

 

It's supposed to be in the 80s today and I have no idea what to wear. I have very little in the way of summer clothes. Oh wow, look at the time. Looks like I have to figure it out.

I'm glad things are going better for you. What a rollercoaster ride! 

 

Yeah, It's a shame we all have it. We shouldn't even know the meaning of dysphoria and anxiety in our lives. Sounds like you grew up in a religious home like me. Shame is just another way to control us.

[Jamie68]

1 hour ago, Jamie68 said:

I'm glad things are going better for you. What a rollercoaster ride! 

 

Yeah, It's a shame we all have it. We shouldn't even know the meaning of dysphoria and anxiety in our lives. Sounds like you grew up in a religious home like me. Shame is just another way to control us.

I think being spiritual is much better than being religious.

[Jackie C.]

1 hour ago, Jamie68 said:

Patience is difficult after waiting so long already just to be who I am. I can't even wear girl clothes outside of the bedroom yet. My wife says she supports me, but it sure doesn't feel like it most of the time. My therapist says to go slow with her. It feels like I'm going at a snails pace.

 

No, I hear you. When you figure out what's going on, you want to dance in the streets and shout it from the rooftops. "HEY WORLD! I'M TRANS! HEY! HEY!"

Then you want to jump in with both feet and get ON with it already.

 

The thing is that HRT takes YEARS to take full effect and there are a ton of hoops to jump through before you can get most surgeries. Just like your first puberty wasn't done overnight, second puberty isn't any faster.

 

Hugs!

[Jackie C.]

2 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

I was in a, it wasn't this tight 3 months ago, cami and jeans. As we walked around the store, I could occasional feel eyes on us but why were they looking? Was I getting clocked? Did they think we're lesbians vs. friends? Don't know, don't really care. I didn't hear any snickering or comments. So I'm assuming the lesbian thing.

 

When my wife and I are out and I think people are watching (or even if I don't), I'll give her a kiss or grab her butt. Why make them wonder?

 

Hugs!

[Jamie68]

1 hour ago, Jackie C. said:

 

When my wife and I are out and I think people are watching (or even if I don't), I'll give her a kiss or grab her butt. Why make them wonder?

 

Hugs!

That's good. I'll have to try that. We were at Menards the other day, and my wife told me a woman walking by did a double take at me and then took a good look at my wife. I wish I would have seen it. Makes me feel good.

[Willow]

Good morning 

 

be on my way to my appointments in a minute. It takes up to two hours to get there depending on traffic.

 

on the boob subject in 9 months mine have changed shape far more feminine but according to a measuring tape haven’t grown.  Yes it takes time and waiting but I’ve been waiting for 60 years.  What’s a couple more.

 

gotta go

 

Willow

 

[Jamie68]

1 hour ago, Willow said:

Good morning 

 

be on my way to my appointments in a minute. It takes up to two hours to get there depending on traffic.

 

on the boob subject in 9 months mine have changed shape far more feminine but according to a measuring tape haven’t grown.  Yes it takes time and waiting but I’ve been waiting for 60 years.  What’s a couple more.

 

gotta go

 

Willow

 

When you're going through stuff it feels like an eternity, but when It's over it seems like the blink of an eye. One of life's little tricks.

[Danni B.]

Morning all.  Elizabeth glad things are settling down at home.  I've worked on retail forever so I can understand about dressing for work.  Most places don't want distressed items due to the holes in the jeans.  I've found plenty of cute options that have fun stitching along the pockets etc.  Willow good luck on your drive.  I'm currently prepping for final interview with a district manager for a job.  ?  Hope I get some good news today

[Ivy]

6 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

It can take longer than that for us older gals. Patience.

Yup.   Seems to be a slow go.   For me, a big thing was the change in how they feel.  There is a difference from "man boobs" at least to me.  Like the first time you accidentally brush against a door frame or something, and realize there is something here that wasn't before.

I think we worry too much about size.  But, some visibility is nice.

[Elizabeth Star]

5 hours ago, Jackie C. said:

6 hours ago, Elizabeth Star said:

 

 

When my wife and I are out and I think people are watching (or even if I don't), I'll give her a kiss or grab her butt. Why make them wonder?

I so need to do this. If anything, I’ll get a better idea of how she feels about us publicly. 

 

5 hours ago, Willow said:

 

on the boob subject in 9 months mine have changed shape far more feminine but according to a measuring tape haven’t grown.  Yes it takes time and waiting but I’ve been waiting for 60 years.  What’s a couple more.

When you measure are you also measuring the band size? For comparison. I found I dropped an entire band size after about 6 months.

[Ivy]

1 hour ago, Elizabeth Star said:

I found I dropped an entire band size after about 6 months.

I hadn't thought of this.

[Jackie C.]

3 hours ago, Jandi said:

I hadn't thought of this.

 

Then how do you measure bra fit? Admittedly finding my bra size is like finding unicorn eggs in my cat's litter box, but I keep an eye on it.

 

Unfortunately, it's about the same, though it's more muscle than fat now.

 

Hugs!