A Place To Say Something

[Guest Kaylee234]

Well there will come a time when the pain of having to hide yourself outweighs the (perhaps irrational) fear of potential pain caused by disclosure. Sounds like you're getting near that time.

~ Kay

[Guest Bellexia]

Or maybe she does know and like doesn't care, or is in a state of total shock. These are possible too!

[Guest ClareJuliette]

Thanks to you both.

Yes, the time is nearer than my own fears would like. And then I'll find out exactly what parents know and don't know and how they react.

I want to shout this from the mountains because it's so wonderful. And fear is the main restrainer. That's probably something many here have gone through until the shouting (or gradual talking) wins out over the fear.

[JJ]

If it was something she didn't know how to handle my mother would ignore any comment made till she figured out what to do. Sometimes she never did. Those were not trans issues but an overall family pattern. Sort of don't acknowledge it and it never happened much of the time. Don't know if you have a family dynamic like that but it isn't uncommon.

Being here quite awhile now I have also often seen where someone comes out to family only to have then say something like "So that's what's wrong with you! I've been worrying". Many times the people who love us and have known us all our lives know something is up. Not infrequently they even have a pretty good idea in general that it has to do with gender though they may be trying to deny it to themselves.

Hope this turns out well for you and you can wait till you are ready. Another thing to keep in mind though and that I have also observed frequently is that once you start to come out it isn't long till someone sees fit to inform your family. It really is a small world. And they take it worse because they are hurt that they learned from someone else and have been filled with all the nasty misconceptions about us by whoever told or have gotten worked up about their own misconceptions, It is far better coming from us as soon as we can be prepared to do so. There are sometimes good reasons to delay but it can also end up being disastrous

Johnny

[Guest MichellePetite]

Hi Johnny,

Struck echos of my Mum there.... she was definitely firmly in the school of 'Least said, Soonest Mended' which may make for a quieter process of 'stuff' but often things were never quite .... resolved properly.

Miss her lots tho...

LnK

Michelle

[Guest Bellexia]

The experiment is working out swimmingly, upon the 24 hourish no food I am starting to hallucinate. I will couple this with no sleep tonight either for extra science-y goodness.

[MaryEllen]

Bellexia. I don't know what you're trying to prove but what you are doing is very dangerous. You need to get something to eat and then get to bed.

MaryEllen

[Guest angels wings]

Bellexia that sounds like a dangerous experiment .i strongly suggest you stop going forth with this it can actually cause a lot of internal problems you are not aware of . Please talk to someone if you need to ,we are here for you .experiment or not this is not the answer to any question lovey .please take care

Angel ((((((((hugs)))))

[Guest Bellexia]

A place to say something. Oh okies. Goodbye Thanks to my handy little condition, not eating is a quick way to go into a coma. Peacey out.

[Guest Tamar]

A rather pointless end to a story that was just starting to get interesting you have the strength to make your story wonderful

[Guest angels wings]

This is a place to say something and share and those responding care for you .you know what you are doing is wrong and you have the strength and power to turn that around .

Angel

[Guest angels wings]

Bellexia something has obviously made you feel down today and the choices you are making are very dangerous .i read your profile what you wrote and I see you are in a lot of pain .we are here to share a shoulder and listen .please tell a family member or friend close by what is happening .dont hesitate you are worth it .go on chat talk to a mod don't give up when you have come so far

[Guest ~Brenda~]

The experiment is working out swimmingly, upon the 24 hourish no food I am starting to hallucinate. I will couple this with no sleep tonight either for extra science-y goodness.

There is nothing scientific about what you are doing.

Brenda

[Guest Bellexia]

The experiment is working out swimmingly, upon the 24 hourish no food I am starting to hallucinate. I will couple this with no sleep tonight either for extra science-y goodness.

There is nothing scientific about what you are doing. Just silly absurdity.

Brenda

Because that is helpful, do you tell all the suicidals they are just silly? Makes me wanna eat so much more.

This is a place to say something and share and those responding care for you .you know what you are doing is wrong and you have the strength and power to turn that around .

Angel

It's not wrong when I see the grey between the black and white.

The processes are functioning, still but it's weak.

I am in pain, so I will cut off the pain. I don't care anymore. Thank you fo trying to help but reasoning went out last nighte.

[Guest angels wings]

Bellexia please go on chat talk to a mod .you need to move away from these thoughts .pain does not last forever sweetie you can make a difference we believe in you .we are here (((((((hugs)))))))

Do you live with anyone ? Is there someone you can call?

Angel (((((hugs))))) filled with hope for you my friend

[Guest Bellexia]

She told me to eat... I have to eat... I will eat. Cannot lose her.

[Guest angels wings]

Listen to her

Angel

[Guest Jamie_cd]

Bellexia, I really hope that things turn around for you. There's no need to make things worse.

On another note, the pride parade was today in Chicago. Of course I missed it due to work I feel like such a bum since works been dead and wish I would have gone.

[Guest Bellexia]

Yeah I am hun, Sarah helped me through it and now I am drawing her a stupid picture for her bday. Dunno if I'll finish it, but anything is better than the stupid comic I did for her earlier. Thank you sisy Happy bday

I wanna see a pride parade up north anything up north really I love the cold , I went to the last one in dallas last year, it was like, it was bloody amazing but kinda rainy I sat on the statue there and had mah crackers and smoke while my friends had their fun Sorry to hear you missed out on this one tho Jamie, I am sure you will get the next one

[Guest Jamie_cd]

Hey bellexia, I'm happy you're moving forward! Sometimes drawing a stupid picture is smarter than you think lol

[Guest LauraJen]

My mood seems to have crashed again :-( I hate how these bouts of depression seem to come so randomly. I've been made to wait for so long now. For how much longer will it continue?

I hate how everything hinges on me getting a job, how the progression of everything else depends on this. In that sense I probably need to get into work more than most, but employers don't know that, and even if they did, they wouldn't care. They are just in it for themselves because they are potentially investing in me. It takes so long as well. It's hard to be patient when you're feeling like this.

I can't even stop looking at the ceiling while in the bath now. I wish a certain two people in the real world would listen.

[Guest Bellexia]

My mood seems to have crashed again :-( I hate how these bouts of depression seem to come so randomly. I've been made to wait for so long now. For how much longer will it continue?

I hate how everything hinges on me getting a job, how the progression of everything else depends on this. In that sense I probably need to get into work more than most, but employers don't know that, and even if they did, they wouldn't care. They are just in it for themselves because they are potentially investing in me. It takes so long as well. It's hard to be patient when you're feeling like this.

I can't even stop looking at the ceiling while in the bath now. I wish a certain two people in the real world would listen.

Agreed, trying to find work myself, hell my last bout of depression was me getting turned down for a job after being there an hour early, helping some customer in front of the manager and having to walk 2 miles home in the Texas heat. Don't stress too much hun, there was a pic I saw, the leading cause of stress related deaths are caused from giving a crap. <3 You'll get yours. I'll get mine and the world will be better off from our presence.

[Guest Zayden]

I just wanted to share that I am starting to feel better about things again. I stopped coming here and to a lot of other communities I am involved in because I was cripplingly depressed. But for the moment I am feeling a bit better.

[Guest -guest-]

I just wanted to share that I am starting to feel better about things again. I stopped coming here and to a lot of other communities I am involved in because I was cripplingly depressed. But for the moment I am feeling a bit better.

That's good to hear.

I would suggest that during the difficult times you resolve to take advantage of the support you'll find here instead of withdrawing. It's during those darker moments that you need help the most, and we're certainly willing to provide it.

Kay

[Guest LizMarie]

I second Kay's recommendation. When you are down, feel free to come here and tell us. Let us know. In our own ways, we've been in similar places and can relate. You do have friends here. Please don't forget that.