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Good evening 

 

Tis the season that I traditionally have high levels of depression.  I know I am not alone.  But, I’m doing better right now than most years.  
 

went with my wife to her quarterly doctors appointment.  I was surprised that the doctor knew exactly who I was since this is the first time he’d ever seen us together and with masks on.  
 

she and I had a good conversation this afternoon.  She showed me a video Bible study she watches.  Said God told her to show me. I won’t get into it other than to say it was about fear of rejection.  As a group who tends to be worried about rejection more than we are?  I told her the one rejection that worries is her.  Her response was we are beyond that .  She accepts me.  We talked about the past, things like how I felt rejected by my father and how I currently believe my parents knew but kept it from me.

 

anyway there were tears shed.

 

Mindy take care of yourself 

 

Bri, I guess we are all going to get a what the comment when someone catches use in a situation that they embarrass themselves.  Good laugh it off story but also a good time to seek protection.

 

Everyone if you are in the path of this winter storm. Be careful and stay home if you can.  
 

hugs

 

Willow

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Well could be a dilemma. Today I get an email. from the Police department where I put in for the evidence specialist position. They want to do a phone interview, Jan 5. I made the appointment for 12:30.

 

I have yet to hear anything from the school. Any number of things they can be doing. Back ground Check. ETC. Or just let's let her squirm some.

 

Anyway I am doing alright. I had a little hard time this morning before I went to work. I was thinking of having a letter to all three of my boys. Telling them the whys and what fours of me moving away. That it was their mom that drove me away. That no matter what ever happens between us. I will always love them. and their families.

 

OH, just great the water works have started.

 

I know when I write those letters It will take me hours on each as I will be crying so much that I can't see straight.

 

Hugs, All

Kymmie

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2 hours ago, KymmieL said:

Well could be a dilemma. Today I get an email. from the Police department where I put in for the evidence specialist position. They want to do a phone interview, Jan 5. I made the appointment for 12:30.

 

I have yet to hear anything from the school. Any number of things they can be doing. Back ground Check. ETC. Or just let's let her squirm some.

A girls gotta have options.

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@KymmieL hang in there and cry as much as you want and need. A job interview sounds great. The more options the best. I know especially now that any opportunity is wonderful. Don't read into the school. People have a lot to do and I have found when we humans try to speculate on something we think best case or worst case and more of the time it is neither. Keep trying the right outcome will come.

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@Bri2020 that outfit looks great.

 

Today I had a -what the heck- moment. I had just spoken to my partner and was hot footing it back to the house (bare feet, hot pavers, Australia you get the picture) when I caught the reflection of this woman running towards the sliding door. I nearly tripped as my brain slowly caught up THAT IT WAS ME, !!!

Not particularly fetching in shorts and T-shirt though, It was a shock nonetheless.

Had a giggle about the almost falling over in the driveway because I don't recognise myself.

 

Stay warm everyone, the warm days are starting on this side of the pond.

 

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Robin

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Good morning all!

 

@Bri2020 You look great!!

 

@Willow So glad you and your wife are getting closer. Those conversations are gold to rebuild intimacy and closeness

 

@KymmieL A good dilemma to have! Congrats on your new oportunity and every luck for your interview on Jan

 

@Robin.C LOL That's wonderful. Congrats for your hard work to get here :) 

 

I'm doing good. A bit in a kind of limbo space between who I thought I was and who I can be - but am not yet. Way more calm than I was a few months back (you all in this forum and my therapist to thank for that), and trying to love myself no matter what, even if this limbo space.

 

Have a very nice day

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Good morning all,

 

Today's the big day. In 3 hours I'm signing my life away and will officially be home owner. I nerve though it would happen but here I am.  I will be leaving the remnants of the guy behind. There's nothing left of him but a empty worn-out shell.

 

After we sign the papers we have to goto my MIL's house to pick up a few things. I'll also be getting the clothes she offered. My wife doesn't know yet. I'm hoping it'll ease some of her stress but will probably be a train wreck.

 

I have a co-worker offer me some clothes yesterday. She's bored with them and cleaning out her closet. I've told her a few times how much I love her outfits and style. Guess it's paying off. I would have been happy just knowing where she shops but no, I get some of the actual clothes.

 

Another co-worker has a collection of purses. She gets them from  her mother who buys them whenever they're on sale. She offered more that once to give me a couple and I usually decline. This time I accepted but asked her to decide whatever she though I would like.

 

Well, I'm off to start the process have to do the final walk-through in 1-1/2 hours.

 

Have a great day everyone.

 

 

 

 

 

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Good morning 

 

wow, what a strange day and it’s only just begun.  I guess my girl hormones are kicking in.  I had a cry for no reason.  Still tearing.  
 

rainy day here but no offense that beats the snow my daughter is getting today, any many of ya’all too.  
 

@KymmieL being able to make a choice is a good thing.  Don’t forget schools are about to shutdown for up to two weeks.  So they have a lot on their plate to get done.

 

@Robin.C you are luck that woman in the door didn’t walk straight into you. 
 

have a great day.

 

Willow

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@ElizabethStarGood luck with everything today! How exciting and nerve-wracking all at the same time. Cheering for you!

Also secretly jealous of the clothing offers, I hope you find some great pieces! I was talking with some girlfriends last night and now I'm obsessed with sweater dresses. I need a super cozy one for this snow we're about to get here later today.

Now what happened to my coffee?

 

Love,

~Audrey.

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4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I have a co-worker offer me some clothes yesterday. She's bored with them and cleaning out her closet. I've told her a few times how much I love her outfits and style. Guess it's paying off. I would have been happy just knowing where she shops but no, I get some of the actual clothes.

I have a friend that used to run a "Hippy Boutique" that unfortunately didn't make it.  She has helped me out a lot with clothes and purses/bags.

Hope your house business works out well for you.

 

Just cold rain here today.  We're just south of where the ice happens.  Someone sent a pix from Winston-Salem, were they were getting a glaze.  

I would prefer snow to ice any day.

 

Stay warm y'all.

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Went in for a consultation today,having my breast augmentation redone in Febuary of next.Implants leaked and were removed last week which were done 10 tears ago.This time,going through the arm pits

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I survived! It was really had to let go of that closing money check, I gave it hug before I gave it away. I'm officially a home owner!

 

10 hours ago, Audrey said:

now I'm obsessed with sweater dresses. I need a super cozy one for this snow

I know the feeling.

 

 

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@ElizabethStarCongratulations on new homeownership! Wishing you and your wife all the best with the upcoming move. So exciting... even though I'm sure it was hard to part with all that hard-earned money at once.

 

Back to making vegetarian black bean chili and cornbread for dinner. Perfect for this snowy night! 

 

Love,

~Audrey.

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4 hours ago, ElizabethStar said:

I'm officially a home owner!

Congratulations @ElizabethStarNow make it your own with style.

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Good evening.  Congratulations @ElizabethStar to you and your wife.

 

well you never get too old to worry about your kids.  Been watching my daughter make her way home through ice and snow.  The hospital where she works is 50 minutes on a good day.  Its been over 90 minutes and she isn’t home yet.  Ice, snow, mountains, snowplows.  She’s usually home about 9’15, it’s 10’30.  Oh and I’m over 400miles away, so I can’t help her except to tell her where the road delays are according to state maps that show incidents and slow traffic. Plus I can see traffic cameras.

 

Until tomorrow 

 

Willow

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@ElizabethStar welcome the the new group of home owner. One that I am NOT a member of. probably never will. It is a dream but I feel it will never come true.  Congrats on the new place. 

 

So when is the house warming party?

 

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Good morning Ladies. I hope everyone is doing well today.

 

And @ElizabethStar, Congrats Girl! Everything is really moving in the right direction for you. I'm so happy and excited for you, we all are. I'm even jealous of you now, so much of whats going on for you I can only dream about. lol. We are all so glad for you and all the things that's going on in your life. Hug Sister and Merry Christmas!

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Thank you everyone. I've already met one of my next door neighbors and saw another. We haven't exchanged names yet. It was more of a grocery store conversation. Today more schlepping.

 

3 hours ago, RhondaS said:

Wow, everything's coming up @ElizabethStar!

I'm feeling a Simpson reference.

 

7 hours ago, KymmieL said:

@ElizabethStar welcome the the new group of home owner. One that I am NOT a member of. probably never will. It is a dream but I feel it will never come true.  Congrats on the new place. 

 

So when is the house warming party?

I didn't think I could do it either but I didn't have a choice. The house we're renting now is going up for sale in a couple of weeks and we couldn't afford to buy it. Sorry Kymmie, no plans for a party yet.

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